Falling Back in Love (Sequel to Darkness)

Chapter Ten

I'm so sorry I've been a wreck and then locked out of my account and ahhh.

Izaya didn't wake up the next morning.

His boyfriend was there at 7, when he always showed up.

Shizuo didn't want to wake him, but he had been so concerned by 2, that he had to. Just to make sure he was okay. He had just woken and now...
He had to.

Shizuo pushed his strength into the front of his mind, not wanting to hurt his lover as he pressed his hand to Izaya's shoulder and shook him.

"Hey, Zaya, wake up, Honey. "

The raven stirred, which relieved his boyfriend's concern, but snuggled back into the sheets.

Shinra decided to walk in right then, perking up when he saw the couple.

"Don't wake him!" He yelled, "He didn't sleep well last night! He was mostly, well, crying. "

Shizuo wasn't surprised, but he still looked down, stroking his boyfriend's hair. He nodded at the man in glasses before sitting down.

"I miss him..." Shizuo sighed. "I mean, I'm ecstatic he woke up, and I love him, but..."

"It's not the same..." Shinra nodded, the blonde doing the same.

"It's hard sometimes. I just wanna hold him and laugh with him and love him the way I used to. I was gonna propose, goddamnit!"

Shinra froze. Shizuo had actually never told anyone that he was planning that. With newfound sympathy, he sat down next to his friend.

"When were you planning on that?"

Shizuo looked down. "His birthday party. But then Izaya got so drunk and I thought 'maybe in the morning', and then that car came and..." tears filled brown eyes. "I never got that morning. Helping Izaya with his hangover and calling him an idiot whilst he giggled and teased me. I never got to force him to have breakfast before going out and I never got to take him to get  sushi for dinner the next night, proposing in front of all those who thought I may still hate him," the tears fell. "I had it all planned, Shinra! We would get married in America, our honeymoon would be a cruise back, he would wear white, complaining the whole time, even though he'd look so perfect...it would have been magical. And I may never get that, he may never get that..."

Shinra patted his friend's back, not knowing what else to do as the strongest man in Ikebukuro cried.

Neither man turned their heads, but if they had, they would have seen Izaya's shoulders shaking.

"I want to remember..." He thought, "Why can't I remember?!"