We invited Sam and Trevor to stay for the weekend so they could catch up with everyone who didn't live in Cali. Jenn, Jack, Andrew, Anthony, and Rebecca started filming their videos outside. The rest of us went upstairs so the house would be quiet for them.
"Yooooo! Let's play truth or dare!" Sam suggested.
"YASSSS" Trevor replied. Lia, Sam and Trevor went and sat in the middle of my bedroom floor. Kian, Ricky and Andrea followed and so did I. Sam, Trevor, and maybe Lia didn't know that Jenn and I were dating yet so I was trying to be cautious of the situations I got into. It didn't surprise me when Sam dared me to kiss Lia. My palms started to get sweaty. I could feel Andrea and Kian and Ricky's eyes on me waiting for my next move. I raised my chin and looked at Lia, her body was sat right next to mine. She gravitated towards me and the tension was so heavy you could cut it with a knife. Our eyes met and I raised one hand to the side of her face and kissed her. I felt her starting to kiss back when then door clicked open. My head and my hand pulled away instantly. Lauren stood in the doorway with her jaw dropped.
"It's not what it looks like!" I shouted. "We're playing truth or dare!" I was staring at Lauren's back. Her tan, thin legs ran back to the stairs. I fumbled while getting up to chase her. Finally I reached at the top of the stairs. Jenn walked into the foyer when Lauren called her. She stood in front of Lauren and her eyes found mine, she smiled not knowing what was coming next. I was too late, she had to know. Her fragile body starting shaking the second the truth hit her ears. My eyes looked for hers but she just walked out of the room, hands wiping her eyes. Lauren turned to me and shook her head before following Jenn. Andrea brushed past me and rushed to Jenn, for a moment my body wasn't frozen. Kian came out of my room and looked at me disappointed. His room shielded him from my mess. I could hear Ricky explaining what was going on. The only noise left were the short, quiet breaths coming from Lia's mouth. She ran out of my room sobbing, her bony hand covering her mouth as she ran down the stairs. Everything around me turned to a quiet buzz. My legs fell to the floor and I just sat there waiting for something to happen. Sam and Trevor tried to get me up so I would talk to Jenn since she was staying the night to hang out with everyone. The boys gave up on me, I was left sitting alone in a deep pool of regret that I could've stopped. My phone vibrated from my bedroom. I dragged myself into my bedroom only to find a text from Jenn.
It read:
please don't call me or try to talk to me. you could've stopped yourself, you only did it because you wanted to. I'm breaking up with you.
My phone bashed against the wall and my voice yelled out. How could I mess up like this? Only four days, four days it took for me to screw up something good I had. When I mustered up the courage to go downstairs everyone was saying goodbye to Anthony. Jenn was driving him to the airport and no one objected because of what just happened. Jack, Andrew, and Rebecca went to edit their videos in Connor's room since he was editing on his desktop in there. Andrea, Lauren, and Lia wrapped themselves in the few blankets we had in the living rooming turned on the TV. Sam and Trevor went to Connor's room. Ricky went with Kian to his bedroom and once again I was left all alone. The guilt followed me up the stairs to my bedroom and tucked me in goodnight. I didn't even bother taking out my computer because I knew I would find myself listening to sad music and looking at Jenn's twitter. My body lay resting in my bed, the only thing I had that I knew I could never let down. Trying to sleep was the most difficult thing I've ever done. For 2 hours I drifted in and out of sleep. When I finally decided I needed a Benadryl to help me sleep it was 3 am, my door was still wide open. The front door closed and I heard footsteps come up the stairs. Her body passed slowly by my door. The bathroom light switched on and her face was illuminated. There were dark circles under her eyes and tear stains on her t-shirt. Nothing could compare to the regret I felt at that moment. My feet dropped to the floor and carried me to the bathroom.
