Loud Thoughts From A Quiet Girl

Utterly Alone. ⚰️

Since writing is my outlet and I'm trying so hard not to cry, I'm going to make this short so I can just go sob into my pillow.
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So Samara's aunt found her phone and went through it so Samara is going on hiatus. She's my best friend. I talk to her 24/7. Sure I have school friends but I talk to them at school and never after school. I feel so lonely. It's the slow grind of life. I wake up, go to school, be happy until I walk home, get yelled at, procrastinate homework, cry myself to sleep. Life is confusing. The best people get punished, the worst are privileged. We learn from mistakes and try to get stronger but get broken down every time. We hope and dream and pray it'll be different but it's the endless cycle.
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Samara always makes me feel so much better. Everyone has that someone who can make a horrible, terrible, merciless day seem great. Wether you know them already or you meet them in the future, everyone has that somebody. Samara boosts my confidence, gives me love even though I suck, laughs with me, cries with me and cheers me on.
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My life has been extra hard lately, projects are piling up, my crush who "likes me back" ignores me most of the time, the girl I used to like now shows more interest, friends are turning on me. I really need her right now, but I guess I will survive.
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Feel the romance, xoxo, C