Hello new guy
You might be wondering how many guys have been here before you
Since you are "the new guy"
But that's not what this is about
I just wanted to say this though
Before I scare you or whatever
I'm quite weird
I get anxious very fast
I get scared
And I run
When I'm scared I run
And I get scared easily
Everything we do scares me
I'm quite awkward too
I feel awkward all the time
I never know what to do
You make me nervous
All these things together, and I want to run like hell
Every moment I spend with you, I want to run
See, I'm not so normal
I want to spend more time with you, but every time I do, I feel like running
I want to move fast with you, but also go really slow
I am scared of getting hurt
I am scared to stop liking you
I am scared that I'll fuck this up like I fuck everything else up too
And I can't tell you this
Because then I fuck it up
I am so scared to be close to you
So scared I don't like you
It makes me wonder if I do
Do I like you?
I think so
But am I doing that to myself?
Am I making myself like you?
As you can see, I overthink
I analyse every little part of everything
Which is, as you can see, a problem
YOU ARE READING
Road To Recovery
PoetryThis is my book. These are my thoughts formed in poems. These are the poems that help me with my recovery. It doesn't feel like a recovery. It feels like pain...
