Reluctant at the Record Store

Chapter 3

I put in applications in at Sears, Hot Topic, Spencer's, Forever 21, and Wet Seal. They all said that I should hear back from them in about a week if I got the job.

On my way back to my dads I go through all the possibilities of how my dads gonna react when he sees that I got my lip pierced. He could either not care or he could go the total opposite and freak out. Knowing him he will blow it out of proportions.

When I pull into the drive way I see that another car is missing. When I make it to the door there's a note that reads"we have went out for a little there is a spare key under the rock. Put it back after you open the door. We will eat out so go ahead and make yourself something. -love dad"

Really? They went out without me. Am I really not apart of this family? I want to cry. I feel so betrayed. Any other family would wait to go out until all family members are present. I'm just not apart of this family like I guess I thought I was.

I make myself some Mac and cheese and sit down at the table and just think. I really messed my life up. Maybe if I wouldn't have smoked my mom wouldn't have sent me away.

No.

She would have. She would have told me I needed to see him again. No I don't I've been here what one day and they already are making me make my own dinner as they are probably laughing and eating at a 5 star restaurant. I'm not important to them. They might act like it but I'm not.

I wash my dishes after I'm done eating and head up stairs. I go to the bathroom and wash my face, brush my teeth and turn my stud. I have to turn it every 3-6 hours. Once I get a job if I even do I will buy that hair coloring and some new clothes. As I'm walking out of the bathroom I hear the front door open.

"Rosalita you home?"

I don't answer. I shouldn't have to. I wait for him to yell it again but he doesn't. For all he knows I could have been kidnapped. No he knows I'm here the car I drove is in the driveway. Maybe I should have parked it down the block and seen if he would have cared to see if I was here.

There's a knock on my door.

"Rosalita?" I hear my dad's voice.

"What?" I say as I'm going through my clothes that are still in my suite case to find what I'm going to wear to sleep.

"I called your name to see if you were home."

"I know I heard"

"Then why didn't you answer me"

"Maybe because you went out to dinner and probably to some store and bought things for your kids and left me here to make my own food for all you know I didn't know how to make anything and here I thought you actually considered me a daughter."

"You're 17 I thought you knew how to make your own food I know your moms always gone so I just figured-"

"Figured I can do everything by myself? I can do everything by myself. Just because mom leaves me doesn't mean you have to. She has a reason though she has to work two jobs to pay for everything. So I don't expect her to be home all the time. But when she is she at least makes me feel like I'm important to her."

"Rosalita I'm sorry okay I'm sorry. But you also fucked up your own life getting into drugs"

"Maybe because I never had a parent to tell me no. Wait I take that back mom told me no but since she was never home because you couldn't pay child support then I thought to myself let's do something that would make my parents hate me. And wanna know something they both do."