In The Midst Of It All (You Me At Six Fan Fic)

Chapter Fifteen:A Morning Full Of Tears

In The Midst Of It All

Chapter Fifteen

   The air was brisk and chilly as I walked back home.I had too much on my mind and didn’t feel like climbing up a tree to go inside my room and act as if everything was okay when I went downstairs to have breakfast.A more accurate description would actually be trying to stomach a piece of toast while my mother commented on her job.Who she was interviewing or how Margaret,her supervisor,was being more of a bitch than usual.My dad would then arch an eyebrow in response and chuckle lightly when she got in a heated debate,more-so to herself,as to how she should be manager and not that duck up 34DD blonde bimbo.This would make me chuckle and my father and I would give each other side glances,each thinking say the same thing.

    Honestly,no matter what I was going through,wether it be boys or friendship troubles,I always had my family.And some days just knowing that I had a mother and father who cared dearly about me got me through the day.But not today.Today I just wanted to be comforted by my best friend. But I couldn’t do that.Because I didn’t have a best friend anymore.She stabbed me in the back to sleep with someone almost 5 times her age.Not just anyone,but my brother.It hurt so much.In front of her,I put up a front as if I could care less.But I knew that deep down inside,I missed her.She was the reason I even went to a You Me At Six concert in the first place.She was the reason why I met Chris. She was such an enthusiastic fan.They saved her life.She was an amazing friend.Yet here we were,not even one week later,and we weren’t even giving each other side glances.I missed her.It hurt me profusely.

            I was so caught up in my thoughts that I hadn’t even realized that I was home.Well,I was right in front of the Oak tree facing my bedroom window.But I couldn’t go inside.I couldn’t go inside and act like if everything was okay.Because,you know what?I don’t think anything was okay right now.

   It took me a moment to realize what was happening.I was crying.I looked down as a single tear dripped and fell onto my sweater.This led to more tears falling from my face.The events of the past few days finally taking it’s toll on me.I was an emotional wreck.The silent crying then turned to sobbing.A sobbing so loud that,from the corner of my eye,I could see someone walking towards me.No,sprinting.By this moment I was on my knees in front of the tree,crying and crying.I don’t think I’ve ever cried so much before.Then I felt someone wrap their arms around me.I didn’t take the time to see who it was,I just wrapped my arms around their neck and burrowed my head into their shoulder.After a few more moments of this intense sobbing,they started to sing.

And I’d give up forever to touch you

‘Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be

And I don’t want to go home right now

And all I can taste in this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

‘Cause sooner or later it’s over

I just don’t want to miss you tonight

And I don’t want the world to see me

‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand

When everything’s made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am.

     I realized after the third verse which song he was singing.iris by Goo Goo Dolls,one of my all time favorite songs.I always listened to this song after I cried,for whatever reason.My favoeire verse was coming up,and so I looked into his eyes and sang with him.

And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming

or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah you bleed just to know your alive.

            My voice was hoarse and shaky due to all the crying.I wasn’t a natural born singer and it wasn’t even a hobby of mine.But I loved this song.It said everything I couldn’t in less than four minutes.

   After he sang the last verse he gave me a slight nod before getting up,and also helping me up in the process.My legs were also shaky and wobbled as I tentatively took a few steps towards the tree.How I was going to climb a tree up to my room,I had no idea.But Josh cleared his throat and,when I turned to look at him questioningly,he reached out and gave me a warn hug.he then kissed the top of my head and leaded me away from the try and to my front door.I sighed and rang the doorbell,dreading the lecture I was bound to get.I heard the click-clack of heels and knew it was my mother rushing towards the door.The door opened forcefully and,after a few seconds,there stood my mother with tears streaking her beautiful face,mascara running down her cheekbones.Once she saw it was me,or registered this in her brain,she ran to me and engulfed me in a warm embrace.She smelt of Chanel No.5 and planted a firm kiss on the top of my head.After she let go she noticed Josh’s presence next to em and immediately scowled.

   “Were you with her?What did you do to her?” Her voice rose an octave as she interrogated him,something that always happened when she was upset.Yet her eyes shone with pure determination.

I sighed and looked up at her. “I was crying when he comforted me.I was right in front of the          house,in front of the Oak tree,drowning in my own tears.”

 She swallowed audibly and looked at me.Her face a mix of grief and sadness.Either way,it wasn’t a good look on her. But after taking one more look at Josh and then at me,she welcomed us both in.As I entered I could hear my father’s panicked pit patter of his suede shoes.Once he saw me he sighed in relief and engulfed me in a bone crushing hug.I sighed inwardly.It was going to be a long day.

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Random update,tbh.

The song is Iris by Goo Goo Dolls.It makes me cry everytime.I listened to it while writing this entire chapter.

As always,an unedited chapter so I’m sorry for any grammar mistakes.

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