@ifelforyou ; changlix

⌁ reveal ⌁

why does he feel so extinguished today?

it feels like someone took a fire hydrant to his raging fire and flattened the poor boy.

he still smiles and makes stupid jokes and messes around like hes five, but he feels strangely odd and i cant place whats happened.

felix sits across from me on the beige sofas of his parent's house. they're out like normal. we both sit curled in comfortable positions and holding boiling mugs of coffee. we just finished watching an episode of a korean drama show and we sit in silence, my mind begging my mouth to say something and ask whats up.

it takes a lot of courage to do exactly that.

"somethings bugging you, felix, i can see it. whats happened?" it turns out better than i hoped and i watch inquisitively as felix places his mug down delicately on the small table and doesn't speak.

"felix? you can tell me, ill help you."

he looks at me again and shakes his head politely, indicating he doesn't want to talk about it. i take the hint and let the subject drop. the air goes awkward for a few seconds before he presses play on the remote and the show starts up again.

i find my mind drifting. whats happened? he usually doesn't mind telling me when he's feeling down and says he knows he can trust me with anything. i pride myself on that fact. i understand that he has his personal issues but.....

unless he cant tell me?

oh.

oh.

something happened with @bangtrash didn't it?

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a few hours later and it seems to me like hes back to his usual self.

he laughs along to the comedy of the show, appreciates my remarks, recreates some scenes in vigorous gestures and i can tell that it took him a while to get over whatever happened and we can truly enjoy ourselves now.

however, i still have a task to attend to.

i dont really know how im going to do it. i know felix keeps all his work in his room, but it'll be a job rifling through every cupboard and shelf for the damn things. and it was probable that he uses the measures of a lock and key to keep his art a secret. i suddenly feel anxious.

interrupting our episode and snapping me out of my thoughts, the familiar twist and shut of the front door chimes. felix immidiately gets up at the sound of it and the voice of his mother that follows.

kindly and looking at me sweetly, she asks felix to help unpack the several and heavy bags of shopping she and her husband had returned with.

begrudgingly, felix sighs at me and sets to task.

i excuse myself saying i need to go to the bathroom and i realise the time is right.

escaping the living room and into the hallway of several other bedrooms, i open felix's domain. his walls are a light blue and his furniture and bed are varying shades of white, black and grey. on one wall, above his desk hangs a board pinned with notes, reminders or simple, uninteresting words.

i look around and realise that theres a lot of places one could hide prized drawings.

however, through the art of simple deduction i conclude that he couldn't have put them in any small spaces since he'd keep his art pristinely neat and wouldnt just stuff them in the back of nowhere.

i search around a bit , slightly frantic since i have a time limit until felix came back but i prowled like a tiger looking for prey and when i finally found it, i was definitely rewarded.

the little shit had pinned a whole stack of pencilled and painted masterpieces to the back of his pinboard, a place where no one would notice but easy if you looked hard enough.

and holy shit.

they were beautiful.

i skimmed through the pages lightly, finding an array of fanart of BTS ( i kept them to the side ), of other kpop groups and celebrities, but also nature scenes and snow and a surprisingly soft looking one of me.

i soon notice a recurring theme in every single one of the drawings : flowers. every page has one included somewhere, whether its covered in plant life or theres a simple daisy in someones hair.

i want to keep looking and analyse the seemingly never ending stack of heart-clenching drawings but i quickly turn to the pile of BTS fanart i had recovered. most of them were single pictures, with each member dedicated to a different flower. i didnt want to take a drawing with only one member : its a competition for the whole of BTS, after all.

my favourite of all of them, a beautiful work of varying pastel blues and pinks is a back shot of all seven members sat in the fields. some have their heads on each others laps, others laying down comfortably, some with heads in crooks of anothers neck. around them spring cacophanys of flowers, tulips and daffodils and daisies and lavenders and roses all in a pastel palette. BTS, and seemingly the flowers too, all look up expectedly towards the falling sunset.

i grab it too my chest and after pinning the other drawings back where i found them, i remind myself to return one day and get lost in felix's art again.

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@minho : i found one

@channieboi : you did

@minho : theyre so good at art im-

@channieboi : are you sure they dont want to enter it themselves

@minho : trust me, they're terrified of submitting it

@channieboi : you think we're doing the right thing

@minho : i believe so

@channieboi : well erm

@channieboi : fill out the form and send it off for judging

@minho : will do

@minho : im signing it as felix, right?

@channieboi : yes

@channieboi : you know his personal info

@minho : yes

@channieboi : should i be worried or

@minho : this is getting sent off as if felix submitted it and if he wins, he gets the tickets sent to his address

@channieboi : he has an extra tickets so obviously hes going to want to bring someone along

@minho : and if i refuse

@channieboi : he'll have to invite bangtrash wont he

@minho : i cannot wait

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*bows*

this snek team setting up changlix

i am sorry if the description of felix's drawing is cheesy / shit but i had a picture in my head that i tried to describe it well

also changbin please apologise to felix hes dying over here

i hope you enjoyed a descent into further madness

( ps. can i get a clap for the longest chapter yet )

-changlixfix