My brothers wife MxFxF

Beautiful angel

I'm trying to figure out the epilogue. And if anyone can make me a cover for this new book I'm writing I would really appreciate it.

It's gonna be a BWWM book ☺. Her name will, of course, be Rosemary.
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Diamond

I sat on the bench enjoying the wind whipping my face. I was relaxed as leaves fell down landing on the space next to me. Kane and Ameelia were leaving in two days to go back to their home in New York. It was done and they needed time to get their things together they said. A part of my heart wanted to stop them and tell them they could stay. However, the other half of my heart wanted Jesus. My feelings for him grew for him every day. It was strange. Just a few months ago I probably wouldn't  have given Jesus a second look because I was with someone and here I was maybe falling in love? Time had really had gone by fast. I had to make up my mind on who I wanted. 

I needed to decide fast. And I was afraid my fast wasn't fast enough. Someone was gonna end up with a broken heart and that hurt me more than anything. How do you choose between people that you care for deep in your heart? I had to look inside myself and visualize my future. Could I love Jesus 10 years from now? Or would my heart yearn for Ameelia and Kane? Would I be stuck in a marriage with someone it thought I loved and secretly not care for them the same way they love me? All these "What ifs" wasn't helping my decision-making process. Jesus honestly made me feel something way different than I felt for Kane and Ameelia. When I thought of Jesus my heart started to beat a little faster. His smile made me happy deep inside. Whenever he was doing something and had deep concentration it took my breath away to watch him.

I did not feel that for Kane and Ameelia though sadly. They were family and on top of that when I thought of them it was only sexually. I cursed my perverted mind to hell and back for the thoughts I would have of them. They held a part of my heart but not for the reason I wanted them too. God knows I wanted to feel them emotionally and run into their arms but I couldn't. I knew this emotion I felt for them was somewhere close to lust. But with Jesus the feeling was indescribable. It was so strong it made me lose my train of thought. I didn't know a feeling from another could be this strong. It's one thing to watch a relationship and feel the love the two of those people had but it was something different when it was happening to you.

The wind blew a little harder causing my scarf to pick up a bit and I blew out a soft sigh. I knew that someone's heart was gonna end up broken in the end. It was so much pressure knowing that I will have to tell one of them I don't feel the same way. I also had to take into account that whoever I choose could I see myself with them in ten years or so. Would my heart secretly yearn for someone else if I make the wrong choice? Would I be stuck in a marriage unable to tell this person I didn't have the emotions I thought I had for them? Would I have kids or something of the sort? The possibilities were endless. But I knew who I wanted.

I watched a small boy toss a frisbee to what I assumed was his dog. He had red hair and grey eyes. He was truly a beautiful child. The Husky caught the plastic toy with ease and the boy smiled joyfully at the dog. His mother that watched him heavily clapped and smiled at her son. She congratulated her son and kissed the dog on the head. The scene was nice and it made me forget all of my worries. The place was relaxing and I would have stayed there all night if I could. 

I didn't leave until around 6:30. Since it was getting dark I decided to come here earlier. This park sat on a mountain. It had winding roads to get to it and it was kinda frustrating but the scenery was worth it. I walked to my car and pulled out my keys from my coat jacket. I unlocked the car and got into the car. I looked up at the stars and breathed out a puff of air. I started the car and pulled out of the parking lot. I started to sit up because it was really dark and my headlights were only giving me so much light. I was trying my best to see and it wasn't working but I couldn't sit up here all night. I was starving and thirsty.

I didn't notice I was starting to get to the rocky side of the mountain. But when I noticed it I was too late. I lost control of the car and I slammed into the rail. But in one small second my life flashed before my eyes. Memories of me and Jesus eating out together and then Kane and Ameelia and I enjoying a movie and their smiles made my heart warm. But after I go that small glimpse of happiness it was ripped away from me as my head slammed into my wheel.

Jesus

I sat staring at my phone waiting for Diamond to call. She promised to call me when she got home and I was starting to get worried. It was already eleven and I was anxious. I called her at least five times. I wasn't until 12 that I got a phone call. I didn't care to read who it was. "Hello? I heard a sniffling woman over the phone." I-Its about Diamond. And that is when my world came crashing down.

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Will she survive?