Broken ↠ S.M.

s i x t e e n

"Shawn!" Aaliyah screamed in excitement before jumping on her big brother.

"Careful Aaliyah, he's still hurt" Elle informed her as she got off of him.

"Hey, how're you doing kid?" Shawn chuckled as his little sister and him sat down on the couch.

"Hey! I'm not a kid. I'm fourteen" Aaliyah playfully pouted.

"Okay whatever you say. So how's school?" Shawn asked his little sister as Elle sat in a chair opposite of the two.

"It's school Shawn. How do you think it's going?" Aaliyah laughed causing her big brother to laugh too.

"Hey, Elle, h-how are my fans taking it?" Shawn stuttered. Elle looked down and frowned.

"Not well, they're constantly posting love. Not that they already did, but even others. Other celebrities even" She spoke quietly.

"Wait, who?" Shawn asked shocked.

"Um, don't freak out but Beyoncé tweeted saying that you were in her prayers" Elle smirked as Shawn's mouth was agape.

"Who else?"

"Um Drake. He was saying how this should never happen to anyone and he's thinking about you" Elle smiled.

"Fuck" Shawn muttered.

"Shawn, Aaliyah is sitting right next to you" Elle hissed.

"Sorry"

"What?" Elle asked him as to why he just had his small little outburst.

"How's you know Charlie, Niall and John been taking it? And Brian?" Shawn asked as he huffed, bending over and running both hands through his long curls.

"Hey, Shawn, listen to me" Elle said as Shawn started to have a panic attack.

"Get Aaliyah the fuck out. I don't want her to see me breakdown. Please Elle" Shawn said as he started to cry.

"Aaliyah, hun, can you go and wait in the waiting room for me? I promise you he'll be okay. You have my word" Elle said sweetly as Aaliyah agreed.

Once Aaliyah left, Shawn let out sobs. Elle sat down next to him, taking him into her arms.

"Shawn it's okay" she whispered.

"No, Elle, it's not okay. I have caused so much harm to the ones I love for being selfish. How can my fans fucking look up to me? I'm a bastard. I'm a piece of shit. I'm a loss of hope. I'm such a fucking dick. God, why the fuck are you still here for me even though I was a complete dick and left you? I'm a worthless piece of fu-" Shawn was cut off by a pair of soft lips onto his.

He didn't hesitate. Not for a second. He loved her. Always had. He kissed her back before pulling away, cheeks now flushed.

"You're none of those things and I stayed because I love you. You are an amazing role model, whether you want to believe it or not. So many people out there look up to you for trying your best, working your ass off" Elle tried desperately to drill into his head. His head collapsed into Elle's small lap. Her thighs now wet due to Shawn's excessive amount of tears.

"It's okay Shawny boy. When you get out of here, I can move into your place and help you out. It's okay. It's okay to be afraid. It's okay to be weak. It's okay to be sad. Love, I promise you it's okay to be vulnerable. You'll be okay. I promise" Elle cried softly.

"I'm sorry Elle for all the pain I've caused you. I don't deserve you" Shawn mumbled quietly into Elle's leg.

"It's okay Shawny. It's okay" Elle smiled as her small hand ran through his long brown curls. He turned his head around, facing Elle. Elle erupted into little fits of laughter.

"What?" Shawn softly laughed.

"You have a pedostache" Elle smiled at Shawn, before wiping off his excess tears.

"First thing I'm doing when I get out, is shave" Shawn smiled.

"Can Aaliyah come back in?" Elle asked softly.

"I guess. I just don't want her to see her older brother, who's supposed to protect her, like this. I'm a fucking mess, Elle" Shawn chuckled.

"I think she'll understand. Just let her come in and say goodbye" Elle said as Shawn looked up at her.

"Okay" he puffed.

...

"I'm sorry ,Liyah, I didn't want you to see me like this. You're too young to be going through this. I'll get better. Then we can have a day together. Go shopping. We'll do whatever you want to do. Okay? I love you kid" Shawn smiled at Aaliyah.

"It's okay. I understand. And of course. It'll be fun. I love you too" Aaliyah, hugged Shawn, as Elle, watched them.

"Hours almost up" Elle frowned as Aaliyah walked out.

Elle, walked over to Shawn, between his long legs, planting her small, soft lips against his cheek. Shawn swiftly turned his head, his lips planted to hers. He smiled into the kiss, followed by her.

"This isn't over Mendes" Elle smiled.

"You're right Ulrich. I'll show you after I'm out of this place" Shawn smirked and winked. Elle, smacked his chest, smiling.