Domesticity || Namjin

Concrete

[Warning: saddness, vaguely described scene, and a cheesy ending.

Enjoy.]

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I couldn't breathe.

I couldn't hear.

But I could see everything.

The pure anger of the man, the shaking symbol of death, the face of a terrified girl, the sudden absence of warmth by my side, the wrong body falling.

But most importantly…

The afternoon sun that glowed hotly upon the rushing pool of scarlet, freely flowing from the wound between such familiar eyes.

My own eyes flickering from the crimson seeping it's way into nearby cracks, to the motionless body before me.

Denial and panic quickly blossomed within my aching chest.

“It can't be…”

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I could feel my eyes sting for the umpteenth time that day as I held the pink hoodie close to my chest, childish and unrealistic thoughts invading my mind just like the scent that invaded the hoodie.

No.

His scent and his hoodie.

“Joon…?”

I could see Jimin’s hand on mine, but I couldn't feel a thing.

“It's starting soon. We all have to leave right now.”

My gaze travelled from the tips of his trembling fingers, and up to the swollen pink of his eyes-- as well as to the other four pairs of grieving eyes behind him.

I can't help it…

“… stay by my side.”

I've grown selfish.

“Please…”

I don't want to lose again.

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[Time Skip A Couple Of Years]

My sun and moon,

You may not be here anymore, but that doesn't mean I will quit-- even if I've wanted to multiple times. I will admit, it does get hard without you here. You left so suddenly. But don't worry. When when those times do come by, I remind myself to look at the stars and clouds that we've held together in our own, private sky… the boys that made up our family… and realize that I'm not alone. Their sky is empty too, without you there lighting their way. Even if they are grown, some more grown than I, I can tell that they still need someone there to catch them if they fall from the sky. So I'll remain as the ground in order to do so, and place them back where they should be. It was my job back then, and will still be as of now.

They're all I have left now. And all that I have left to remind me of you.