Ace's Raine

Chapter 8 The "Talk"

Once we got back to my dads house, we all passed out. The boys all slept on my floor while I took the bed. Not really sure if this was such a good idea because I don't sleep.
I slip off my bed, stepping in between the boys limbs and pausing when one of them moves a smidge. I look over to see it's 3:30 am.
Damn, I need to wear myself out so I can sleep.
  Luckily my dad has an indoor gym so I can go there anytime I want. The soundproof walls are exactly what I need right now.
  I can't help but worry what Raine knows, dos he know the truth or is he just guessing? Whatever it is, he can't know about anything. I have to make sure of that.
  I'm still in my bikini cover because I was too lazy to change, I walk over to the punching bag and just let out all of my frustrations and thoughts. One after the other until I can feel the blood dripping from my hand. Everytime I lunch I imagine my dads face smiling at the cemetery. That cold and awful day still stuck at the back of my mind, the day everything went to hell.
  I continue to lunch until I'm so wore out I can barely breathe and head back upstairs. By the time I changed into pjs and got back into bed after tip-toeing around them, it was already 5:30 am.
  Next thing I know I'm seeing black.

"Why would she have this?"
"I'm not sure but things aren't adding up, I mean after yesterday and then this? Guys I don't like this."
"Well have a talk with her when she wakes up."
I can hear the end of the conversation as I wake up and suddenly don't want to open my eyes. I want to pretend I'm sleeping until they leave because I'm scared to know what they found.
Slowly I squint my eyes and to my surprise they found my bag I brought from the camp. It's got guns and knives and my metals, but what is the most important thing in there is a picture of all of us before I was taken. We took the picture 2 days before the funeral, the morning before my mom was killed.
We all were sitting at our booth at The lovely Cup and Raine had his arm around me and he was smiling. I haven't seen him smile once since I've been back. I wonder why that is.
  Snapping out of my thoughts I look over at Raine to see him looking at the photograph so intensely and then back over at a gun.
"Ahem" I clear my throat.
They jump up in shock and quickly push all the stuff away.
  "Ace what the hell is all this?" Lenny asks.
"I told you I got into fights, it's not a big deal." I shrug.
"Oh and just like all the scars on your body and the screaming for Raine in your sleep, that's all not a big deal?!" Lenny's yells.
"Guys I'm sorry this all seems bad but-wait, did you just say I yelled for Raine?" I glance over at him, to see him staring at the ground.
"Yeah, nonstop. Come on Ace, talk to us." Lenny says.
"I've told you guys the truth and I think it's time for you to leave now." I say looking out the window to avoid there sad faces.
They all stand up silently and look so depressed and head for the door.
I pipe up before they reach the door, "Guys, you have no idea how sorry I am for the way I've hurt you. I never meant to hurt any of you in anyway, I promise." I say quietly.
They don't reply but they all look at each other and just keep walking out the door.
Liam stops and turns around.
"Ace I know you didn't run away. Whatever did happen though has affected you and all of us and I just wish you could realize you can trust us. "
With that he walks out the door and it's not before they all leave when I start crying. Which if Roger saw me right now he'd say I'd have to go through trials again because crying is weakness.
The rest of the day went slowly and I didn't hear from the boys once.
My father showed up later that night and walked into my room without knocking.
"Ace you need to be careful, if one thing slips you're going back." He says sternly.
"I know, I'm not dumb." I reply.
"Well the boys are already suspicious and I want them off your trail and I mean it."
I just roll my eyes and wait for him to leave. I mean I already knew all of this, it's not like it's a big secret.
Well that's an understatement because the whole thing is a secret. I just wish the boys knew I did this to protect them, that's all.
I went to bed that night wondering what my life would've been like if I had just never gone home that night.