I'm Trapped Between Two Worlds!!

Chapter 9. Part Two

Chapter 9 Part Two.

Zandra’s POV

1 HOUR BEFORE THE MEETING.

Here I stood, in the middle of the woods, a few miles from the pack house with…Derrick. My mate. I couldn’t believe I was so blind about Damian and pleasing Ruth with gaining his heart that I didn’t actually notice my own mate. But I can’t accept him as my mate, as much as I want too and as much as I need his touch right now and for him to tell me that everything is going to be ok, I just can’t do that to my family. Who knows what Ruth will do to me, no scratch that, I will take whatever she does to me, but what about my family? The only family I have left? I can’t let her do anything to them because they’re my only family and I won’t lose them because of my selfish acts.

But then again, Derrick was from another pack and soon to be Alpha, maybe he could help me? Help us? If Ruth did anything or Robert for that matter maybe he could be there and stop this. What am I saying? I can’t just throw that at him. Hi I’m your mate and made a deal with the devil, now get me out of it… yee-ah right! Like that is happening anytime soon. He doesn’t deserve a mate like me, a mate who can’t be there for him without bringing crap on them and anybody else who came close to her.

So I stood myself with my head high and said the world’s biggest lie, and the most hurtful thing I will ever do.

“I’m sorry Derrick. I can’t do this, this must be some kind of mistake, we are never meant to be. I’m sorry but my heart belongs to someone else. Goodbye” and just like that I turned on my heels and ran off to the pack house, I couldn’t do anything for him, for me, for…us. Now there is never to be an us, thanks to a stupid wicked bitch. As I got closer to the pack house a figure I knew to well for my liking appear out of nowhere. Robert…

“Did you reject him?” he asked through our mind link.

“Yes” I said my voice filled with venom.

“That’s my girl”

“I’m not your girl!” I snapped at him, I really really hated his guts.

“Now now Zandra, you wouldn’t like a punishment now, would you?” his face was expressionless but I could hear the sick smirk on that comment. I flinched as the memory of the last ‘punishment’ came to my mind, I didn’t like showing I was still scared of him after 5 years of hell.

“Is good that you remember, now go take a shower, you stink with his scent on you. We will meet at the same time tonight ok?” he said, and with that he walked off.

I used the back door to get into the laundry, I shifted and put on my fuchsia robe on, I hurriedly ran to my room, once there I ran to the bathroom, turned the shower on and once I was in it I let myself cry out all the pain I felt for everything, for rejecting the only chance I had of being truly happy and free, free from this pack, this house and specially from Robert and Ruth. Just remembering them memories of my ‘punishments’ flooded my mind and I screamed, not to loud though, but enough for only someone passing through the hallway would probably hear, I hope no one is close.

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Damian’s POV

Here I was sitting in a very uncomfortable chair waiting for everyone to settle down, even families I haven’t seen in years were here, deep down that hurt me. It hurts me to know I have pack members I really don’t know much about, I don’t even see them. At moments like this I doubted myself as an Alpha, not that I was saying that anytime soon though, it’s just my father always said they lived to far on our lands and they knew I wasn’t going to be able to reach out to them so often. I still felt wrong though.