HeartBreak (Larry Stylinson)

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I'm really thinking about turning this one-shot into a story. You think I should?

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I woke up to a blinding light. I blinked a few times trying to make anything out. Looking around I saw everything blurry. I blinked a few more times trying to see just anything.

"Louis?" Someone croaked horsely. My eyes went wide. I thought I died. I thought this pain in my chest was over. It just ached more than ever when I heard that beautiful voice.

When I opened my mouth to try and say his name all that came out was a choked sob. I tried to breathe but I was in pain everywhere. My throat clogged up making it even harder. I tried and grasped anything that would help me but I couldn't move, I was stuck. Someone started yelling for a doctor or a nurse but I couldn't make them out. All I saw was a blur then everything went dark.

When I opened my eyes again I felt calmer. I could see without everything being blurry. I was in a hospital bed in a whitish tan room. I looked over to the door to my left seeing Lottie, Fizz, Phoebe and Daisy sleeping on the chairs and the ground.

"Louis!" I heard the familiar voice of my mum coming from the window beside my bed. I turned my head to face her smiling sadly. She had tears in her eyes. When she seen me facing her she bent down and gave me a huge bone crushing hug. I wrapped my arms around her slowly. She tried to stay quiet but she started hiccuping making me chuckle horsely.

"Oh Louis, are you okay my baby?" She whispered quietly to not wake up the girls. I nodded not sure if I can say anything right now. I hurt them so much. I was thinking of my selfish needs and never thought about how they would feel. She let me go carefully to not mess with the I.V's in my arm.

"I think we should talk about what you did," I frowned looking down willing myself not to cry, I don't deserve to cry. Then she continued. "Just not now though, We're going to wait until you are better, yeah?" I nodded closing my eyes slowly. I heard her sigh making me open my eyes looking up at her. She smiled with teary eyes.

"I'm going to let you sleep, hun. Good night." She gave my forehead a small peck before going over to the girls and sitting down with them. I looked up at the ceiling thinking about what I did.

I almost killed myself. That's all there is to it. Do the fans know? Does my sisters know the story, did my mum tell them? Oh I hope not. I don't want any of them worried. Does Liam, Niall, Zayn care about me? How about Harry? What about him, is he worried or was he hoping I died on the bathroom floor when he found me? So many questions I need answered but I know I'm not going to get them answered right now.

"Louis, Please get some rest." My mum's voice snapped me out of my day dream I smiled her way as much as I could before closing my eyes once more.

I woke up once again feeling way better than the last two times. My mouth was dry making me want a drink. I looked around the room seeing it empty. No one is here for me. No one cares. My thoughts are getting to me again.

A nurse walked in with a smile on her face. She looked over to my bed seeing me with my eyes open. Her smile widened.

"Hello, Mr. Tomlinson! Everyone has been so worried. You gave everyone a fright. We've had big guys with big cameras outside our door's for the past few days." She spoke nicely, her voice laced with an Irish accent. It really reminded me of Niall. That smiling lad, one of my best friends. At least I thought of him as one. I don't know if he feels the same.

Everyone has been worried? About me? The fans? My family? She never said anything about the boy's or even Simon and Management.

"Do you feel up to visitors?" I nodded wanting to see my mum again. We were on tour for a few months so its really been awhile. The nurse nodded heading out the door leaving it cracked a little. Sighing I threw the arm not hooked up to the I.V over my eyes. I caused such a mess for everyone.