HeartBreak (Larry Stylinson)

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"Shit, Louis!" Liam yelled pulling on his hair. I looked down ashamed. I was caught by my band mates, my friends, about to cut myself because of the bitch Harry calls a girlfriend. Niall wouldn't look at me he was holding the razor and just staring at it like if he kept his eyes on it long enough, it would go away. Oh how I wish that would happen.

I heard more footsteps from the stairs and seen Harry, Zayn, and Jamie come into the room. They looked around in panic well Harry and Zayn did. Jamie was just standing there clinging to Harry's arm and looking at me with a sick twisted smile. I hate her, Harry's the only person stoping me right now from ripping her head off. She made me so angry and sad that I almost cut myself again. But then I couldn't blame her. It was my own actions anyway.

"What the hell happened?" Harry demanded moving away from Jamie's arms which made me smile slightly until he stormed over to me. I looked down and heard Harry let out a sigh. He sat beside me and wrapped one of his arms around my shoulders.

Niall finally looked up and stared at me with so much hurt in his eyes it really pained me to see him like this. "Lou," his voice was thick and hushed like he was going to cry. Not again, please not again.

"Niall I'm fine. Really, won't happen again." I shrugged Harry's arm off me and Liam stopped pacing and looked at me. He really looked like he could kill.

"Your fine!? God damn Louis! Your not fine, not even close! This happened too many times for you to be fine!" Liam yelled and Zayn set a hand on his shoulder gently as a warning to calm down. Niall let the tears roll then and ran over to me and pulled me into a hug. I sighed and hugged him tight telling him everything's going to be okay. But how can I say that if I don't even know?

"Liam it won't happen again okay. Just drop it." I whispered and Niall pulled me around the waist tighter at that. Liam glared at me then softened. I know what he's going to say so I shake my head before he even said a word.

"Louis, we have to. Simon and Paul need to know what you were going to do. It's only right to tell them." I shook my head faster. No they can not know. They will put me in an institution full of crazy people. They will drug me on pills until I can't feel the pain anymore. Or worse they will kick me out of the band and I won't ever get a normal career again. This cannot happen.

"Please, don't. If I try again you can. But we are doing so well and I really don't want them to know again. Just please, god no." I pleaded. Zayn shook his head and came over to me and Niall he wrapped his arms over us and I sighed into the embrace. Liam sighed and nodded.

"Fine. But if it happens again, we have too." I smiled to him grateful. Harry stood from the bed and went over to Jamie by the door. She was glaring at me like it killed her to see me happy. What did I ever do to a bitch like her? Harry gave her a kiss on the cheek and then the lips making her giggle and making me want to cry and take the razor from the desk again. Shit.

"The meeting with Simon is in a few minutes. We gotta go guys." Zayn spoke up once he was finished with the hug and looked to his phone clock.

The meeting with Simon. I really forgot about that. What would he want from us? I just got home not even two days ago. Then again will any of the boys bring up me trying to cut to him? I won't be able to stop them if they do. I just hope they care enough about me to keep their mouths shut.

Looking over to Zayn he smiled nervously and set a hand on my shoulder and pulled me out of the room. The rest of the boys and Harry's girlfriend followed after. We all walked to the living room and I grabbed my shoes putting them on slowly while watching everyone else doing the same, even Jamie.