Avery was gone today, and once again, my bullies made my day absolute hell again. And my parents were no different.
I'm hurting so badly... I cut, even after my promise not to.
Death, I'm such a failure.
Why can't I be normal? Love who my parents would see fit? I ask myself this daily.
But deep down, I know that I couldn't love anyone but Avery.
I can't change who I love.
I can't be who my parents want me to be.
And most of all, I don't want to be anyone different. It's just a part of me.
A part of me that causes me to be depressed and suicidal, but a part of me nonetheless.
I'm so reliant on Avery to keep me alive... I need his presence. Even just seeing him can make me happy.
I'm trying, Death.
Wait for me.
