Changing of the Seasons

Chapter 4

                                 I turn around to see a girl. Her long blond hair floats down her shoulders, her skin fair, and her big blue eyes covered in tears.

                    "Kate... I-" She interrupts me.

                      "Piper, you could've told me about this." She whispers.

                    "I didn't want to hurt you. Or Sam. But it looks like I already did..." I sigh, my voice trailing off. I look down at Sam. I just notice now how hurt he is. I told him just to let me die... to just leave me here. Which he should have. I should have died. But... but I didn't.

                      "Go down there and make the boy feel like he isn't worthless," She whispers in my ear, "And maybe you'll realize that you're worth something too."

                              My eyes are still wet and red as I climb down the rocks. I'm shaking and my eyes have gone from a smoky gray to a crystal blue.

                           "Sam..." I whisper. He looks up in shock. I thought that he would scream at me, but instead he runs up and pulls me into a hug.

                           "Oh my god you're alive!" He says. He laughs a little through his tears, and then faces me. He's half smiling and he's wiping tears away from his eyes, but I'm not smiling at all.

                       I can almost sense a dark storm cloud hovering over my head. A deep pain keeps on poking at my heart. Guilt. Guilt that I didn't die. Or maybe... maybe even guilt for Sam. I'm not sure. I should've died. Kate should've let me jump. Sam was almost about to. But maybe... if I did... would he have caught me again? When I called for him, he was surprised I was still alive. I don't think he would've.

                         "Piper, we can go anywhere you want. We don't care where you want to go. We could go back to fucking Colorado if it'll make you happy. Shit Piper, just choose someplace to go with us." Kate says. I crack a half smile. Dammit Piper, you have the best friends in the world. And Sam Fairtress just kissed me!

                   "I just want to go home," I whisper. I lift my arm up to wipe my nose, and then leave. I'm leaving Sam in the pool under the waterfall. I can't bare to see his face anymore. Red and wet with tears... that's all my fault. I can't look at him. I ruined him. It would've been better if I had never come back. 

                   But I did come back, and I stopped him from dating that whore Penelope Eldernook. I accepted Elizabeth and am slowly recovering from my mother's death. I helped Kate get through her tough time with her brother, I still am. So why don't I feel good about these things? Why am I not happy?

                   I walk, run, back home. I run up to my room quickly, hoping Dad or Elizabeth don't see me. I check my clock. It's 8:00. I decide just to fall asleep. It's the only thing I really CAN do right now. I can't peer out my window to see Sam smiling back at me like old times. I can just lay on my back and stare up at the ceiling, dreaming of the things that could've been. Wishing that I had the courage to stay at the waterfall. But maybe it was better for me to leave. I had to do the right thing. 

                        

                             My alarm clock marks the beginning of a new day. I just wear a college sweatshirt with jean shorts and walk out the door. I walk to school today, too. I don't feel like getting a ride from Kate again. She'll just ask me more questions about yesterday. And how did she know about the waterfall? Oh right, from the drug thing.