My Mom Let Him Rape Me

Part 1

Hello world , Im Nene real name Kanisha . Im 16 years old . I'm a sophomore at one of the dopest schools in LA. I live in the ghetto town in south La, all you see is drug dealers , crack head , and all the killings in the world. I live here with my mom and my 4 brothers and 3 sisters. We live in the 2 bedroom ran down apartment. My siblings and I hate this neighboorhood , but my mom think its the best because she loves to be around this type of things . My mom has been on drugs my whole life . Me and my siblings have been in and out of foster care. We've been living on the streets, in cars , under bridges evrywhere you could think of thats not a house. My mom recently just got us back , she convince the social worker that she was all cleaned up and was gone take care of us ,but we all knew that was a lie . Me and my other brother Gus both have jobs . We have to make sure that us and our other siblings are fed and have a roof over our heads . Gus works full time at Walmart and I'm a waitress at Ihop. Gus and I dropped out of school 2 years ago because we knew that we're the only thing that our siblings got. Our mother didn't care about us , all she cared about was a high and a different men . She's never here and when she does come , she steal from us take all of our money and then leave and we wouldn't see her days and weeks at a time . One time she came and brung this man with her . They both was so high that they couldn't focus . My mom tried to get me to sleep with him so she could get high . Man , I hate her so much for that . I couldn't believe my mom tried to sell my body for her to get high .I will never for get that .

My child hood wasn't all the best . My dad left our mom when Taylor was born so that was 6 or maybe 7 years ago . He went on and started his own life with another woman and forgot all about us . Gus hates him so much and promises himself that he would never do us or his kids like that . Gus always tells me that we had to grow up fast. Gus is only 17 but he's been working getting money for us since he was 13. I love my big brother so much . He makes sure we're always straight. He makes sure we have food , clothes and whatever else we need . Our siblings love him to death . They look up to him as their dad but he keeps reminding them that he's their big brother but they still calls him dad. I told Gus well you're the only dad that we really knows . He keeps telling us he know and that everything would get better .