Everyone comes into our life either for a season or a reason. In the end I can't say Kendyl saved me or I saved Kendyl. I think we both saved each other. We taught one another how to save a life.
Started: July 14th, 2016
Completed: May 31st, 2018
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Kendyl's POV
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Months had passed since our trip to Hawaii and I had not heard from Harry. At that point, his answer was pretty clear to me. Doesn't mean that it didn't hurt.
I hoped that somehow, a part of him could get pass the impending death. I hoped our love was stronger than that. I don't know what I was hoping for but clearly I was wrong. I didn't allow myself to feel angry at Harry. I deserved his silence. I had to accept that as his answer.
It was been hard, trying to maintain the will to keep going when all I wanted was to die. But die permanently, one last time. Life without Harry in it seemed pointless but I didn't feel sorry for myself.
I had the chance to have one great love in my life and I lived it. I experienced it but I also ruined him.
I was more than aware of my selfish choices but at the same time, I wouldn't change it. I knew how horrible that sounded but it made sense if one thinks about it. If you knew, you could have this wonderful thing. Experience love that makes you see the world in colors. Brighter and meaningful.
Meaning. Feeling like your life has meaning because you give that much to the other person. You are and you give meaning to someone else. In a world that is so sad and full of ugliness, you find someone, and try to undo some of that in them.
He could say whatever he wanted. I knew I was there for Harry. I stayed up those nights listening about all the things that hurt him. Tried to mend the dark thoughts. I was there.
I stopped what I was doing because I was getting too emotional. That was not good for me. I got up from my window to go see if I could do something to distract myself. I had too much time on my hands now that I had problems teenage girls my age had.
