Journal Of Little Indian Girl.

Some Indian Things.

Hi. In our society where we live it's really hard to take a stand for yourself and specially when you are of a feminine gender. In my it is atleast. I am not sure if it is a universal thing. Being a girl child born in a typical Indian brahmin family, I didn't got a grand celebration as boys usually get. I'll discuss it later. That's just another topic.

Long cut short, it's hard to prove your worth. You have to constantly give evidences to proof your capabilities and your abilities. Dreams and wishes just get buried down somewhere beneath the piles of attempts. Mind it, by attempts I mean the attempts to proof yourself to people who really don't deserve it.

My parents are really good people. But I have to admit that they biased. Thy belongs to that patriarchal society where old outdated customs matter the most. More than the happiness of people in your family.

I hope I will soon find my way out from this muse. It hurts when a younger child is given more attention, love and care. It really does hurt.
And I think that's if any body asks me whether I love my mom more or my dad. I simply reply that I love my younger brother most in my family. And I really do. Being a sensitive, emotional and a introvert child, I always find my brother there with me. He is surely a sweetheart who gets me the most.

My mother seems (to me) to be a victim of this whole patriarchal system. She is the wrong person in the wrong situation. I just feel bad for her sometimes.

I'll again say my father isn't a bad person. He loves me (he said that to me once and my mom also says that). He pays for all my expenses.
He does all these things except the showing some love, care, sympathy, emotional an mental support.

My parents are very sweet but a lot more different than what I used to picture them in my mind.
The definition of 'ideal parents', is what that differs between us.

I can just write so much on this. But I have to go, now. Bye.
Have a good day or a good night. :)

PS- Try to ignore the spelling or any grammatical mistakes. I wrote it just now in a rush and now I am straight away publishing it. In no mood to go through it again.

So final byee.