Don't Blink by the--blackdahlia (John Winchester X Reader)

Chapter 15

1989-1990

Things went good for a while. (Y/n) traveled along with John, helping out with hunts but mainly watching out for Sam and Dean while he went out on them. It made (Y/n) a little nervous sometimes for several reasons, but he always came back home to them. The night he came back, once the boys were asleep, things were perfect between her and John.

January came around and (Y/n) knew that Dean's birthday was close. But he didn't seem interested in it. (Y/n) couldn't help but notice that Dean didn't ask for anything for himself, instead asking if they could get some food so Sam wouldn't go hungry. So, (Y/n) set John down and told him she would do his hunt and he would stay home with Dean and Sam to celebrate Dean's birthday. The three Winchester boys went to see a movie while (Y/n) got some of her ribs broken. She tried to hide it from John, but he found out when Sam gave her a big hug when he was excited. That's how in the dead of March, her and Sam were left at a motel in Illinois while Dean and John headed on a hunt.

"I'm bored." Sam groaned.

"I know Sammy." (Y/n) said. "Your dad called a couple hours ago and we're heading to Blue Earth. To Pastor Jim's." She saw Sam smile. She walked around and packed their things while Sam followed. She was in the middle of folding her clothes when Sam started to talk.

"Hey (Y/n)?" Sam asked.

"What Sammy?" (Y/n) returned. Sam sighed.

"I...I know you're not my aunt." Sam said. "I know you're my mom." (Y/n) froze.

"What?" She asked, her voice shaking. "I...Mary is your mom Sammy. I'm just your aunt..."

"I heard dad and Dean talking to Uncle Bobby one day." Sam said. (Y/n) sighed and turned to look at him. "You're my mom. I look more like you than I look like Dean's mom. From the pictures I've seen at least." He looked up at her.

"Sammy...it's the truth." (Y/n) finally answered. "I didn't want you to find out this way. I wanted to tell you I just...I wasn't sure how." Sam walked up to her and hugged her, making her stop talking.

"Dad and Dean keep secrets from me." Sam said. "I'm just happy to know one of them was that I have a mom. And now I've found her." (Y/n) couldn't help but smile as she wrapped her arms around her son. "Should we tell them I know?"

"We'll figure that out on the way." (Y/n) said with a smile. "Come on Sammy, let's hit the road."

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A detour sent them into Wisconsin, and from there (Y/n) was lost. She had a car that Bobby had let her borrow since it looked like she was going to be stuck in this time for a while, not that she really minded. And with Sam knowing the secret they had all been hiding, she didn't want to leave.

"Where are we?" Sam asked, waking up. Her car kept sputtering and since she was lost, she figured stopping for the night was a good idea. She pulled into a motel as the car died.

"Madison, Wisconsin." She explained. "And I think we're going to be stuck for a while." Sam nodded. "How about we head inside? You can get a shower and I'll call your dad and order us a pizza?"

"Extra cheese?" Sam asked. (Y/n) smiled.

"Of course."

They got out of the car and (Y/n) got them a room. They headed inside and Sam went straight to the bathroom to shower. (Y/n) got the beat up old phone that Bobby had given her and called John. It rang and rang, but he never answered.

"Hey John, it's me. Sammy and I were on our way to Blue Earth but we got lost and my car died. I'll keep you posted but I think we're going to be here for a while. Give Dean my love and we'll see you soon." She hung up and sighed before placing the order for her and Sam's pizza.

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Sam and (Y/n) stayed in Madison for months. John never called them back. Sam with anyone else that (Y/n) called. But ordering from a pizza place had proved successful, so she knew it wasn't her phone. It was during that time that she realized that her growing sickness she was feeling wasn't food poisoning, but the fact that she was pregnant again. After she figured that out, she started the search for a job, finding one relatively quickly at a church daycare/school.

"You get to go to school now." (Y/n) told Sam as she took him to the church for his uniform for school. Sam couldn't have been happier. He went to classes during the day while (Y/n) worked with children in the daycare part. With the money she got, she was able to get her and Sam an apartment to live in. Something didn't want her to leave Madison, and if John hadn't gotten back with her, then he probably wasn't.

It was strange, going from having no kids to having two that depended on her. She was glad that she had money saved, and she knew what trends in the market to avoid and what could help her. She just hoped that maybe this upbringing would change the future for the boys. She just hoped that if she ever made it back to her time, it wasn't as screwed up as the way she left it.

It was September as (Y/n) and Sam walked around the grocery store. Sam was excited for Halloween, wanting to go dressed as Batman or a ninja turtle. He had turned 7 that may, and John still hadn't called. But Sam had made friends from the school and they had a birthday party. A real, honest birthday party. Complete with streamers and gifts, even a cake. Sam was finally getting to be a kid.

"Mom, can we go see a movie this weekend?" Sam asked. He was looking at the sugary cereal on the shelf.

"We'll see Sam." (Y/n) said, rubbing at her stomach.

"Did dad call?" Sam asked. He asked that almost every day.

"N-no." (Y/n) answered, groaning some. Sam looked at her.

"Mom? Is my brother hurting you?" Sam asked. "Mom?" His voice carried worry in it, causing one of the teachers from his school to come over. "Mrs. McMichael, somethings wrong with my mom..."

"(Y/n), is this your due date?" She asked.

"Two more weeks." She groaned. "But I was late with Sam. Might be early now."

"Let's get you to the hospital then." She said. Neither Sam nor (Y/n) noticed her eyes flash blue as she left them towards the parking lot.

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Present

Sam came back downstairs, determined to tell Dean what had happened with his vision of Lucifer, but Cas was sitting on the couch with Dean glaring angrily at him. Bobby and the Doctor were busy discussing research and such, and Adam had disappeared upstairs to sleep off everything that was happening to him.

"What's going on?" Sam asked. Dean didn't look up at him.

"I got him to come back. And he's going to explain everything to us." Dean growled. Cas sighed.

"Dean, I think it's more important you talk to Sam first..." Cas tried to say, but Dean shook his head.

"No. You're going to tell me everything." Dean hissed. Cas looked at Sam, his eyes softening.

"I think that this is all my fault." Cas explained. "All because of Zachairah, I had to do things that I didn't want to do." He looked Sam and Dean in the eyes. "I'm the reason you don't remember any of this. It's all my fault, but I remember things now, and I'll tell you anything you want to know."