Don't Blink by the--blackdahlia (John Winchester X Reader)

Chapter 17

1990

Thanksgiving was coming closer. Adam would be two months old soon and he was growing strong. Sam loved to help (Y/n) take care of his baby brother. When he was sitting down to watch cartoons, sometimes he would help her feed him. Sam stopped asking if John had called. Sam didn't know about the family business, but he seemed to realize that Dean and John were not coming back from the trip they had been on.

Today, the family of three was going to get things to celebrate the holiday. Sam was excited. He was going to be in a play at school and he actually had friends to miss over the short break. And he got to see his mom and Adam on his lunch, which was the coolest thing to him. If Adam was crying when Sam went to see him, he would try his hardest to cheer the baby up. If he was sleeping, he would sit quietly by his crib and eat his lunch.

"Mom, when are we leaving?" Sam asked. He loved helping with everything, including grocery shopping.

"Just a second Sammy!" (Y/n) called back to him. She picked up Adam from his changing table. "Who's my big boy?" She smiled and kissed his forehead before laying in his carrier. She tickled him gently, getting a laugh out of him. "Ready Sammy?"

"Yes!" Sam cheered. (Y/n) got the diaper bag. Sam put his coat on. It was cold out, but not snowing yet. The grocery store wasn't far from their building, but (Y/n) knew that they couldn't carry the groceries all the way back and it wasn't safe for Adam to stay in the cold. They headed towards the car.

"Mom, where's the car?" Sam asked, looking around. It wasn't where (Y/n) normally parked under the awning.

"I don't know." (Y/n) said, holding his hand. She could hear a familiar rumble coming towards then. She turned to catch a glimpse of the Impala. But before she could say anything to Sam or wave down the car, two men appeared in her line of sight. Sam cried out as he was ripped away from her.

"Mommy!" Sam cried. (Y/n) gripped Adam's carrier tighter as she turned to look at Sam.

"Hello (Y/n)." A man said, walking up to her and taking Adam from her.

"No!" She screamed. "Give me my boys! Cas!"

"I can't do that." He said sadly.

"Mommy please!" Sam said, tears falling down his face. Cas handed Adam over to another angel as John and Dean headed towards the building. Cas walked over towards Sam and placed his fingers on his forehead, making the boy go limp in the other angel's arms.

"Sammy!" (Y/n) screamed, getting John and Dean's attention. The angel that had Adam disappeared. "Adam!" She looked at Cas. "You bastard!"

"I'm just following order (Y/n)." Cas said. Tears fell down her face as she looked over at Sam. "They're coming straight from the higher ups. I have no choice."

"Remember that when you pull a righteous man from hell." She growled at the angel. "You're supposed to just be following orders." Cas looked at the angel holding her back.

"You know what to do." He said. The angel nodded and disappeared with (Y/n).

"Where is she?" John growled as he pointed a gun at Cas. The angel holding Sam laid him on the ground as Dean ran over to him.

"He won't remember the last few months." Cas explained. "He'll just think that he was spending time with one of your hunting friends." He walked over to Dean. "I'll see you soon." With that, he touched Dean's forehead, dropping him to the ground by Sam.

"Don't touch my boys!" John growled. The angel stared him down before waving off the last of his backup. "What are you doing? What are you?" John asked.

"Your son, his name is Adam." Cas explained. "He's in Minnesota with a woman named Kate Milligan."

"Why are you telling me this?" John asked. "Aren't you just going to do to me like you did to my boys?"

"No." Cas said. "You will always find (Y/n). I want to make it easier on you. I had to erase their minds. They won't remember her. They will only remember Mary Winchester as their only mom. Sam won't remember Adam or anything."

"Why?" John asked. "How do I know you didn't kill them?"

"They're breathing." Cas assured him. "I have to follow my orders to the best of my ability. And you'll find her again, I promise." With that, he disappeared, leaving John in the empty parking lot with his two unconscious boys.

****

"Just leave her here." Michael instructed the angels that had (Y/n). "He shouldn't be able to find her. He'll be so overcome on his search to find Azazel and his anger that Sam is leaving the family behind. He won't care about her anymore."

"Are you sure sir?" An angel asked. Michael nodded.

"2000. A new century and a new place for her to stay." Michael explained. "I have to go debrief Castiel. He got too attached to this case." The archangel disappeared then. The angels left (Y/n) and disappeared. She looked around and cried.

Yet again, she lost her son.

****

Present

"You asshole!" Dean yelled. "You mother fucker!"

"I had no choice." Cas defended. "And I didn't even remember I did it, because of Michael."

"All the more reason that I will never say yes to him." Dean sighed. Sam and Adam had come in at the end of Cas telling Dean about the mind erasing. "So, mom and dad weren't really supposed to be together?" Cas shook his head.

"Mary's soulmate was a man named Jason Gray. John's was (Y/n)." Cas explained. "Mary and Jason would've had just Dean. John and (Y/n) would've had three kids; Sam, Adam, and a girl named Rosie. Things would have been a lot different for the two of you." He looked from Sam to Dean, as if there were other things he was leaving unsaid. "But it's too late for all that now."

"You guys keep fucking up our lives." Adam said, sounding like Dean. "Do you know where she is? I have so many questions."

"I don't know." Cas said. "I just know that she's alive." Sam sighed and grabbed his phone from his pocket.

"Who are you calling?" Dean asked.

"The one person who can tell where she is." Sam said.

"No. We don't need him." Dean said. Sam found the number.

"Yes we do." Sam said. He placed the phone to his ear and waited for an answer. "Hello Chuck..."