Hold me Down

Chapter one

I was on my phone with the tv on in front of me when the door bell rang and continued to ring probably Boone asking for some crack.

"What."I said aggravated.

"Where Hakeem." I swear if this one of Hakeem hoes claiming that bout to have his child imma kill his ass.

"First of all who are you."She rolled her eyes

"Look I just need to take to him real quick"

"He ain't here."

I closed the door in the hoe face. Thats the third time this week.The door opened and Hakeem walked in with cash in his left hand and a gun tucked in his pants I tried questioning him about it on multiple occasions but it always the same sentence. 'Don't worry about it'

"Where you been."I asked

"Out why?"he looked at me skeptical

i nod my head. "No reason and some girl came to the door dying she need to talk to you."

"Shit What she look like? Fat ass? Mexican?long ass nails?."he asked

"Mhm"

"Why you ain't let her in Dez?."he smacked his lips

"In case you have forgotten I live here too and I wasn't about to let some random hoe in my house."

"First of all it's my house I pay the damn bills."he said getting an attitude

"With what? That dirty money Hakeem stop tryna act like I'm stupid you out selling drugs you don't just carry around a gun in your pants for no reason or when you come home like you done rolled around in some weed."

By one I was done Hakeem stormed past me towards the door.

"And where the fuck are you going"

"None of your business."He slammed he car door shut and took off down the street.

I was about to shut the door when I caught Ms.Williamson outside on her porch, swear nosy ass lady whenever something happen she always the first to be outside.

My phone vibrated on the coffee table it read
Zahra name across.

"Took you long enough."

"Damn hello to you to.what you want."

"you know Kayla."

"your cousin Kayla or Vic sister Kayla."

"Vic sister.She told me that her older sister having a 21st birthday."

"And what's this got to do with me."

"Well her name is Clarissa,Celest or something like that."

"Claudia."

"Yeah she having her birthday party that just opened up by them rich people."

"I don't know Zahra."

"well make a decision im already outside your house ready to go to he mall."

"You ain't think to tell me I could say no and send our ass home."

"When do I ever call and say I'm ping to your house."

"never And that's the problem."

"You'll Be Fine be just get dressed I'll wait in the living room ."

"And who gave you a key."

"Your fine ass brother"

"Ewww you nasty goodbye."

I hung up the phone and dressed in a basic black shirt shirt with jeans and slipped on my slides.i slicked my hair back into a bun.

"Damn no wonder I was only waiting for about fifteen minutes you look basic as hell."I rolled my eyes.

"Let's go."I grabbed y keys at the same time my phone vibrated

"What."I said irritated.

"Watch your attitude Dez."

"Do you need something?"

"You going somewhere?"

"Yeah why."

"Cancel it I need you stay home Mel dropping Keziah off."

I groaned. "Can't somebody else watch her."

Don't get me wrong love my niece to death but it's just her ghetto ass mama I can't hardly stand the only reason I ain't beat her ass is because of Keziah.

"No it's only for a couple hours and don't let nobody else in aite."

"Mhm bye."

"So."She asked impatient

"Can't go Keziah on the way."

"She looked at me with her face scrunched up. "And who dropping her off?Her thot as mama."

I nod as Zahra continued her long tiring rant which seemed to drag on.

"And her broke ass brother owe me twenty."the doorbell interrupted Zahra mid rant.

Mel stood there with her phone in one hand and Keziah in the other.

She finally looked up and rolled her eyes when she saw that it was me and not her baby daddy. "Where Keem?."

"Not here."

She handed Keziah to me and her diaper bag which was empty with one diaper and a toy.

"When you see him tell him I need to talk to him."I nod and shut the door

Keziah smiles as he bounce in my arms.at least Mel good for something, I placed Keziah in her walker and went through the refrigerator looking for some food to feed Keziah.Knowing her mama probably ain't feed her before she got here.If Keziah not here then she with grandma because Mel mama don't want nothing to do with Keziah.

"You heard about what happened with Jason and them?"I shake my head.

"Jason, and Abel were found dead and Miles was hospitalized last night and people said some other person was there ."

My heart suddenly sped up stuff like this makes me worry about Hakeem.I finished fixing Keziah her bottle and watched as she bout chugged the bottle while watching tv.

About an hour into watching a lifetime movie my phone starts going off.I adjust sleeping Keziah.

"Hello"

"Dezerae."I recognize the breathless voice as my grandma.

"Grandma what's wrong."I ask as panic begins to rise in me.

"My baby."she cried

"Grandma is everything ok."I ask

"Hakeem Dezerae he's dead.

I covered my mouth to prevent loud sobs while tears trail down my face.I got up and place Keziah in her crib.As soon as I close the door I breakdown.It must have been loud enough Zahra walks closer rubbing her eyes but stop when she see me.

"Dez What's going on."

Finally managing to stop breathing so heavily I muster out a sentence. "Hakeem he's dead"