Hours had past since I had woken up and I was still in my bed. All I wanted to do was lay there and lose feeling, just become numb to the world. Thinking about it that way didn't really seem so bad. I'd never feel sad again, I'd never be hurt again. Unfeeling to everything seemed like a wonderful dream that wasn't really too far off. A knock sounded at my door; I didn't respond. The door opened and my mother walked in.
"I have breakfast on the table for you," she said sweetly.
"I'm not hungry, thank you though." I didn't even turn my head to look at her. My eyes stayed fixed on the wood ceiling above me.
"Sweetie you need to eat. I understand how you're feeling right now, but you need your strength."
"I'm not hungry," I repeated lamely.
"Lucie. You need to eat. I made your favorite." She sat down next to me on my bed.
This time I did turn my head to look at her but again I repeated," I'm not hungry."
Her eyes hardened and her mouth formed a thin line, "Lucie, just because you are feeling sad right now does not mean it is the end of the world."
"In my world it is ending. Flames everywhere. Chaos strewn about. Screams of those suffering, everyone trying to find safety and shelter. No survivors in the end." I say with an eerie monotone voice.
"Fine. Starve yourself. See where that gets you." Her voice was firm as she stood up to leave my room. "I know you're hurt but you need to think about moving on. I don't mean to sound harsh, but the sooner you can move on the less you'll hurt because of it." She walked to the door and looked back at me one last time then with a small sigh she left. I was alone once again. Maybe I should never marry or have children. If I don't become close to anyone then no one can hurt me.
The love of my life was gone. Or was probably gone. I should just assume the worst so it's not so much of a shock when they tell me he is lost to our world. I can look forward with a straight face and not fall apart at the sacrifice and have my heart torn to pieces. Two days. Two days and it'll all be over.
I sit up and swing my feet over my bed and play with my hair. Caspian used to play with my hair. No! Stop it! I told myself. You need not think about him. He is no longer important to you. He is nothing but a wisp of smoke around a fire. I pulled my nightgown over my head and sat there naked for a few minutes still swinging my feet like a child would. I looked down at myself and saw my small breasts, my flat stomach, I was as pale as the sky before a storm.
A small breeze came through my room from my window causing me to shiver and goose bumps to rise up all over my skin. My nipples became taut from the cold as well. I stood up to close my window forgetting that I was stark naked, I leaned over the window sill to grab the edge of the window. My torso was exposed to every set of eyes outside my home. I pulled the thing shut and before I turned towards my wardrobe I saw something at the edge of the forest, something black, almost invisible. But one thing I could recognize was its red eyes.
I gasped. Maybe it was Caspian? It could have been. True there were supposedly hundreds of Red Eyes roaming the forests, but it could be him. I prayed to the Gods that it was. Besides the fact that I was naked it would have been awkward for me to have flashed them if it wasn't him. I shook my head remembering that I was supposed to forget about him. I walked over to my wardrobe, I needed a bath today so I'd have to go to the stream for it. I grabbed a towel, a robe, and a cream colored spaghetti strap dress, the straps themselves were brown and there was a floral pattern on the dress itself. I put on the dress, brushed my hair, grabbed my things then headed out the door, mother didn't even try to stop me. All the while on my way to the stream my stomach was growling intensely.
Honey took Amy and I to the dining hall where everyone sat and ate together. It was huge with many long tables put in parallel rows already filled up with Night Shadows. Amy took me by the hand and pulled me towards a small group who looked Elven as well. I looked around and saw that everyone hear looked Elven.
"Hello everyone, this is the new Chosen One Caspian." They all looked at me as if expecting me to say something. I managed to come up with an awkward wave. "This is Hannah," she pointed at a girl with long dark hair, wide eyes and, and a large mouth showing off crooked teeth as she smiled. "Avery," a tall boy with ears that jutted up above his short spiked hair, he was skinny and looked fragile. "And Tate." Tall but muscular he looked like someone you wouldn't want to get on the wrong foot of. They all nodded their heads in a form of greeting. We sat down and the chatter started back up again between the three of them.
"So.... You guys look like my kind in this cave, but when you are out in the open you look different. Why is that?"
Avery was the one who responded, "we have an animal form that we change into when we go out hunting so we're not mistaken for Elves. But they don't know that we don't always look like that."
"And do you really enjoy wrecking havoc upon everything in sight?"
"Does it look like a dump in here? No, it's clean. We don't wreck everything we see.... What gave you that idea?" Tate interjected.
"I grew up knowing, or rather having been told that," I said timidly. "Our parents tell us that you guys are monsters."
"Well it looks like you're one of us now," Hannah smiled showing sharp pointed fangs.
Avery changed the subject suddenly saying, "I was out hunting earlier and I went over near the village, I saw this girl walking around her room naked and she saw me before shutting her window. The look on her face was priceless." He started laughing.
"What did she look like?" Amy asked.
"Long hair, dark eyes, pale, I don't know really I was far away and what I was paying attention to was not her face." He laughed again. "We should go out hunting. Maybe we'll see her again." Everyone agreed with Tate. "Oh but the newbie can't change forms. He'll just slow us down."
"He can ride on my back," offered Amy. She looked at me right then smirking and I could tell that she was thinking about what happened earlier between us. She leaned in closer to me and whispered so quietly only I could hear, "this time you can be on top." She bit at my earlobe before pulling away, her lips grazing my neck gently.
After she was back in her original position, I looked and saw everyone staring at us. My face felt suddenly hot and I could tell it was redder than a star tomato. They started giggling and snickering; I looked over at Amy and saw her biting at her lower lip.
They transformed into their animal forms and Amy jumped up, her paws on my chest and licked at my face. She put her paws back on the ground and waited for me to climb on her back. I held on to her neck, soft black fur like silk against my skin. We rode out of the cave and through the Sleeping Willow Forest, we stopped when we came to the stream, I didn't know why until I saw what they were looking at.
A girl sat naked in the stream bathing herself. The water was clear and I could see everything under the water. I slid off of Amy's back and they all changed back to their Elven forms.
"Ooh she looks like a fun play toy," said Avery.
"Tasty," said Amy licking her lips.
"I'll have fun tearing out her throat," inquired Tate.
I couldn't see the girl's face for her hair was in the way, but I couldn't help but feel like I knew her from somewhere.
"Watch and learn how to make a good kill newbie," Tate turned to me and flashed his fangs my way.
He made his way towards the stream and made himself visible to the girl. "Hello," he said politely. She was startled and quickly attempted to cover herself, might I add that it didn't work.
“Don't be afraid girl. I'm not here to hurt you," Tate gave the girl a friendly smile. He walked closer to her and moved her hair so that it rested behind her ear. Half of her face was then revealed to me. Lucie. My Lucie. Quickly and without thinking I ran towards the stream not a second thought about Amy, Avery, or Hannah. They didn't stop me, but waited and watched to see what I'd do.
"Lucie! No!" I ran up to her ignoring the startled looks from both Tate and Lucie. I stood in front of her blocking her from Tate's view. "Don't touch her!" "Why does it matter to you?" Tate asked me.
"Lucie is my fiancé," I stated matter of fact.
Lucie was looking from me to Tate and back again looking confused, "...Caspian... What's going on? Where have you been?"
"This is your fiancé?" Tate looked at both of us in turn with an expression I couldn't read on his face.
"Yes. Don't touch her." I warned.
"Caspian what is going on?" Lucie sounded frantic.
"This is Tate." I motioned towards the other boy. "He's a—"
"I'm a friend." He finished quickly. He glanced sideways at me giving me a look that said shut up now.
"Nice to meet you Lucie," Tate motioned in her direction.
"And you too," Lucie said awkwardly.
Suddenly something inside me changed. I don't know what it was, but I felt different. I put my hands up to my face in pure confusion, what was happening to me? The confusion disappeared and just like that my feelings for Lucie were smothered like a candle flame. In fact my compassion for everything I knew and loved seemed to disappear. The only thing I wanted to do was get back to the Night Shadow kingdom with the rest of my new found family.
"We should get going," I said to Tate, my voice flat all of a sudden.
"Wait what are you talking about? No one's seen you for days Caspian. Your father was found dead yesterday. You need to come home." She stood up, forgetting she was stark naked and held her hand out for me to take.
"Lucie... I have a new home now. And I know my father is dead. I killed him." I felt nothing as I looked her in the eye and told her the truth.
"What...?" Her eyes grew wide. "What are you going on about? Is this a joke?"
"No, it's not. And I can't go back there; that's not my home anymore."
"I don't understand..." I made my eyes change into my animal form, I didn't know I could do that already but somehow it worked. When she saw my red eyes something in her changed. I saw the shocked expression but there was something else. Something deeper. Something inside her eyes died.
"...They... They were right about you. You... You were chosen then..." It sounded like a question in a desperate attempt to reverse what she just saw. Hoping, praying that it wasn't true.
"We need to go." I turned towards Tate, he looked slightly pitiful when he glanced my way. His eyes told me that he knew something I didn't. I turned away from Lucie and we started walking back the way we came. I didn't look back.
As my beloved Caspian walked away from me without even saying goodbye I ran as fast as I could in the water. Sloshing my way through the cool liquid I caught up to him and wrapped my arms around him holding him close. "Don't go. Please don't go. I love you." I buried my face in his back.
He didn't respond. He just stood there, not saying anything in return, yet not pushing me away. I didn't know which was worse. "Please. I can't do this on my own. Don't go." I held him tighter.
The next time he spoke his voice had changed slightly. He had an accent that sounded more like Tate's strange one. Wait... Was Tate a Red Eyes? That would explain why Caspian kept saying that they should be going. "Lucie... Eh-hem... Lucie I can't see you anymore. We have to part ways. We'll never have our Union Ceremony, never have kids, never have a life together. Don't you get it? Eh-hem... It's over Lucie. We're over."
My grip on him slackened slightly. "Goodbye Lucie," he pulled away from me completely, leaving my naked body wet and cold, my arms limp at my sides. He didn't even say I love you. He didn't even bother to look back.
I didn't even bother to dry myself off as I began to dress myself. I felt the same way now as when mom told me that Caspian might have been chosen. Except now it was a hundred times worse. He was chosen. And he gave up on me. No romantic proclamation of I will always love you or I'll find a way for us to be together. He just gave up without a fight simple as that. Did he even love me at all? If he gave up that easily he couldn't have possibly loved me like I loved him. I felt numb. I couldn't feel the ground beneath my feet. Not the wind on my face. Nothing. I wasn't even sure if I was remembering to breathe. I wasn't watching where I was placing my feet and I tripped on a jagged rock, slicing open my calf. I didn't even feel the pain from that. I just wiped the blood off as much as I could and kept walking. At least I think I was walking, I don't remember much of anything except hearing my mother scream at me why my leg was bleeding. I didn't respond I just started crying. I didn't feel the tears in my eyes but I could see my vision blurring so I must have been crying, right? Oh well, it didn't matter anyway. My life has been turned upside down very violently and I didn't know if I could even find some pieces of normalcy to put back together.
I was looking down at the floor then suddenly my head was jerked upwards. I saw my mothers face but I didn't hear what she was saying. I saw her mouth moving but no words reached my ears. I just stood there staring at her blankly while she rambled on about something unknown to me. She led me to my room after a few feeble attempts to get my attention and laid me down on my bed. She gave me a drink that tasted what death must be like. I almost spit it out if it weren't for her holding my lips closed. I managed to swallow and before too long my eyelids started to fall. The last thing I saw before I lost consciousness was Caspian's back as he walked away from me.
On our way back to the cave no one said a word. I walked slowly and a slight ways behind everyone else. Amy noticed my absence from the rest of her friends and slowed down and walked with me. She put her hand on my shoulder silently telling me that she was there for me. I looked up into her beautiful blue eyes and all my thoughts of a past life were diminished.
"Do you want to go for a walk?" I asked her.
"Just the two of us?" She replied.
"Yes." Was all I said.
"Hey you guys Cas and I are going on a walk. We'll meet up later," she told the others.
"Cas huh?" I chuckled.
"I figured you'd need a nick name to go by because Caspian is so long to say and since you have a new life a new name would do nicely." She blew me a kiss when she was done talking. I smiled at her and we started walking off from the rest of the group. She took my hand and we walked like that for a while until we came to a small clearing. She plopped down on the soft grass and patted the space next to her for me to join her. When I sat down she laid down and stretched out her long slender limbs. I noticed how her shirt came up past her naval; I had to physically stop myself from leaning down to kiss her stomach.
I moved my eyes from her stomach up to meet hers, and found her staring at me while biting her lower lip. I rolled onto my side and brought my hand up to caress her cheek. Suddenly a vision came to me very violently making me jerk away from Amy. A look of concern came across her features. In the vision I saw Lucie, but no emotions rose to mind when I saw her. She was in the forest, just sitting there and gazing about at everything. She looked at peace. In my mind she looked beautiful. No, that's not the right word. She looked... Delicious. I wanted to pin her down and bite into her eyes and feel the juices squirt out as she loses her sight forever, the last thing she ever saw was my mouth about to devour her eyeballs. She'd be terrified and have no idea what I was going to do next. She'd be helpless. I'd bite into all her limbs, severing the nerves so she would be unable to ever use them again. Her screams ringing in my ears like a church chorus. I would pull her clothes off and bite into her breasts and stomach, blood running down to nourish the soil.
Crimson tears streaming down the sides of her faces and she lay sobbing, crippled, and blind.
I leaned toward her ear and whispered an almost inaudible "I love you" before I bit her ear off. Her screams once again pierced the silence of the forest. I put my hand upon her chest, in between her breasts, and felt her trembling body, her heart hammering in her rib cage. Blood still pumping, unknowing that by now it was futile to continue.
I raised one of my sharp talons and set it gently upon the crevice between her collar bones. I slowly added more pressure until I broke the skin. At first a small trickle escaped, then a stream, and I started to drag my claw down her torso to almost half way to her naval. She seemed to have given up screaming by now. I took that as a challenge to get her to scream again. I put my fingers in the wide cut I had made and pulled at the skin until I heard it start to tear. I heard her take a sharp breath and her bottom lip was trembling uncontrollably yet she still remained silent. Her skin continued to tear and by now I could pull her skin away completely and leave her ribs exposed.
I licked my lips before reaching into her chest cavity and wrapping my fingers around one of her delicious looking ribs covered in red meat and saturated with sweet, thick, crimson, blood. I heard her whimpering, silently begging me to stop. I leaned forward towards her one good ear and whispered, " I wanna hear your scream and beg for mercy. And just maybe I'll give it to you." She laid there trembling and crying for a few moments before whispering ever so quietly, "Please.... P—please stop.... C— Caspian .... I'm b— beg— ging you... AAAARRRRGGHHHHH!!!”
I had cut her off by pulling on the bone that was still in my hand and ripping it upwards so that it made a loud cracking noise; the pain causing her to scream out in agony.
"Yes baby girl, my sweet sweet child, it'll all be over soon." I brought the piece of flesh and bone to my mouth and sunk my teeth into the fresh, raw flesh.
"I... I c–can't f-f-fe-el... m-m-mu-my ar-ms a-a-nd... l-legs..." She couldn't help but stammer as even a simple thing like talking hurt beyond anything she'd ever imagined.
"That's because I severed your nerves sweetheart. You'll never be able to use them again." I gave her a fleeting smile before I dove for her throat, causing her to scream, and as I bit into her jugular her screams were silenced forever.
I suddenly came back to reality and found that Amy was looking at me curiously. I met her eyes before darting them away and gazing down at my feet.
"Are you alright Cas?” She asked and reached her hand out to touch my shoulder.
"Y-yeah... I just had a weird vision is all," I managed to get out timidly.
"Those tend to happen when you start the change. Tis difficult, yes, but there's nothing that can help it. And they'll just get worse. Some... Don't survive the change." She didn't meet my eyes as she said this.
"What's the survival rate?" I asked still not looking at her.
"If you can make it to your First Feeding, then the chances are higher. But even then some do not make it."
"When does the First Feeding usually start?"
"In a few days time...." She explained.
"Wait... So I can't eat for days?"
"No, the First Feeding is when you have turned completely and then you have your first kill."
"But I've already had my first kill. It was a squirrel."
"You haven't completed the transformation yet. Yes it was your first kill, however, it doesn't count because..." She trailed off.
"Because what? Amy I need to know this," I looked into her eyes pleadingly.
"It only counts when," she paused once again, "when the kill is something specific. Something special." She looked worried now, as if she didn't think I’d be able to handle what she needed to say next.
"Continue, please," now I wasn't so sure I wanted to hear what she had to say but it would have eaten me alive if I didn't know.
"The first kill must be something you love more than life itself. You drink the blood and eat the heart, their essence is then bonded with yours, thus making you immortal." I wasn't sure I heard right the first time so it took a while for me to process everything. Immortal? That could really happen? I had never heard that Night Shadows were immortal. It still hasn't sunk in completely because I felt like I was still missing something.
"But I've already killed something that I love, I killed my own father."
"That doesn't count," she shook her slightly annoyed that I still didn’t get it. "You weren't conscious of doing so. It has to be on purpose, you have to be conscious, and it has to be something you love..." Her face was stony, there was no emotion in her voice that I could detect. I still didn’t fully comprehend what she was saying I had to kill, there were many things I loved, was I supposed to just pick one?
"Why do you think you keep having visions of Lucie? Of ripping out her heart, of how sweet and wonderful it would feel to end her life?"
Suddenly I understood what she was saying. It was Lucie. I had to kill the love of my life, well the former love of my life anyway, seeing as when I thought about her I no longer felt anything. I sat there, flabbergasted, could I actually kill her? Imagining it was one thing but actually doing it was something else entirely.
I must have sat there for quite some time just staring at the grass because Amy then decided to wrap her arms around me in an attempt at comforting me. Why did I lose all feeling for her? How could it have happened so quickly? Like a candle flame just extinguished into smoke. And the smoke is all I have left, breathable bits of pollution that will be the death of me.
“I know how you feel right now Cas, it was the same for me when I was chosen from my village. It gets easier after a while,” she put her head on my shoulder, her arms still wrapped around me.
“How did you manage to do it?” I asked quietly.
“It wasn’t as hard as you would think. I had lost all feeling for her. I know its hard to imagine no longer loving your mother, but it happened so quickly I barely knew what hit me. But… In the process I killed my entire family.” Not one emotion crossed her face as she told me this. Nothing in her voice hinted at remorse, or sadness, or even malice or pleasure. There was absolutely nothing. It radiated off her skin and I felt it in the air.
“How old were you? When you were chosen.”
“I was nine, no one had ever been taken at that age, so no one thought it would be me. Not until my entire family was found dead and their blood running down my face as I was curled up in a corner, scared out of my mind.” She looked somber then, “that was when they left me tied to an alter one night and left me for the Night Shadows to either devour to shame me, or take as their own.”
She looked up at me just then, our faces inches apart. Her eyes were a beautiful deep blue, more stunning than Lucie’s gray ones. Lucie was beautiful but her beauty paled in comparison to the girl leaning on me just then.
“So how long have you been here? As a Night Shadow?” I was genuinely curious, I didn’t know anything about these creatures that I was literally about to become and hearing her soft voice made it hard to not want to hear everything I could about her.
“It has been nearly one hundred years I believe. A very long time for your kind I know,” she saw the shocked look on my face and continued quickly. “But for us time isn’t seen as a threat of death, just another notch for marking day and night.” Her slender fingers started drawing circles on my thigh as she continued gazing into my eyes.
“Will I really live forever? Now that I'm going to be a Night Shadow.” I watched as her hand slowly crept up my thigh while still making circles. I felt myself get hard, and I could tell by the way she was watching me that that was exactly what she wanted.
“Yes Cas, we can still die, but it is much harder to kill us.” She leaned in close to my ear and bit my earlobe and pulled slightly, sending shivers down my spine.
“So…” I tried searching for something else to say as my breathing became heavy. Her lips met my neck and started kissing up and down until she meet the crook of my neck and started sucking at the skin. A low growl came from my throat, she was driving me crazy and I didn't know how much more I could take.
“Did you have anymore questions Cas?” She continued sucking at my neck and her hand found its way to my groin and was slowly sliding my pants down before she pulled it out.
“No… I’m good.” Now her hand was touching me, pumping up and down making me even harder, I just wanted to pin her down and rip her clothes off. She stopped sucking only to bring her mouth down to my waist and started to finish what we started earlier. She pushed me down so that I was laying down, and with her face down and her butt facing the sky, her mouth came around me, sliding over me and started sucking. Her tongue swirled around my head making my back arch. I pulled at her hair, making her moan and she started sucking harder and faster. I was close, I could feel it building up. Gods it felt so good. She brought a hand up and clawed at my stomach leaving red marks. I couldn't hold it any longer, I finished in her mouth as she continued sucking for a few more seconds before coming up, looking me in the eyes and swallowed.
I sat up and flipped her over so she was on the ground and I on top. I lifted her shirt above her head leaving her torso exposed. I pulled at her pants until they were around her ankles. I just stared at her for a moment, taking in her beauty before my lower half jerked me back to the present. I put my hand on her stomach and let my fingers wander all over her body. My fingers felt her taut pink nipples and heard her breathing get slightly heavier than before. My hands wandered down to her stomach and between her thighs, teasing her lips.
I moved up and started kissing her neck and her jawbone and worked my way down until I caught one of her nipples between my lips and started sucking. I massaged her other breast while my tongue swirled around her nipple and bit down gently and pulled causing her to moan. I kissed under her breast, and down her stomach until I came to her thighs. I kissed each one slowly creeping closer to my destination. Just on the outside of her lips I bit her skin, my teeth slightly sharpened to points, leaving teeth marks. She pulled my hair as she moaned louder this time.
I moved my mouth so that I was over her and started teasing her with my tongue. Going back and forth and swirling around in circles. She arched her back as she moaned with pleasure. She tasted so sweet. And so different from Lucie. Not saying Lucie was bad, but she was the only one I had ever been with. And tasting another girl for the first time made it that much more exciting.
She was so wet that she started dripping, and I did my best to catch all of it with my tongue. I put two fingers inside her making her back arch again, and felt her walls close around me, gods was she tight. I couldn’t wait to go inside. With one last flick of my tongue I came up and kissed her mouth, letting her taste herself before positioning myself just right and entering deep inside her. I let out a loud moan as I pushed all of me inside her, and for the record I was not small. She grabbed at my shoulders and dug her nails into my skin as I started thrusting in and out as hard and as deep I could. In one fluid motion I grabbed both of her wrists and pinned them above her head, and with my other hand I went for her throat and started choking her. I kept pumping myself in and out of her and my hand moved from her throat to her bread and started massaging it and playing with the nipple. She screamed in ecstasy and her voice echoed in the otherwise silent clearing. I felt her walls pulsating around me and knew that she had just finished; I smiled at her and as we made eye co tact her face turned bright red. But I didn’t stop, I kept going until I couldn’t hold it any longer, I was about to pull out when she told me, barely louder than a whisper, “don’t pull out.” And at that moment everything came out at once and I doubled over in pleasure, breathing heavily. I pulled out once I caught my breath and sat back and watched as it dripped out of her.
I laid down next to her, still breathing heavily. I turned to look at her and see those gorgeous blue eyes, but all I could see when I turned my head was the look on Lucie’s face when I walked away from her.
YOU ARE READING
Lucie Grace
Fantasiforbidden love, death, destruction. If you're looking for a happy ending you came to the wrong place
