BENEFIT SHIT

Chapter 13

-Okay so y'all have thought about being friends with benefit?

Nya asked with a worried look. I nodded with a shy smile.

-But i have made rules for myself!  Don't worry. I know myself, i won't fall for him for real.

-I don't know Jeehee for real.. This seem toxic and risky for you. I don't want you to get hurt.

-Nya, listen to me. Nothing will happen to me!

-Jungkook will still be seeing other girls?

-Yeah, i don't want no one to know. I just want to get some experience for a futur realtion. He's hot as fuck so i'm not really losing anything.

-Bitch, i don't know. You know what i think about Jungkook and some of his friends. 

-You are talking about Jin and Jimin?

-Might be. What are the rules you were talking earlier?

-Okay so look!

I clapped my hands together.

-One, gotta think that this is just for fun and when i'm done with our things i will try to leave first. 

Nya nodded but i could see in just her body language that she hated the idea already. 

-Two, i have to not get attached to him so i will limit my interaction with him.

-Jeehee, it's dumb. You share plenty of classes with him bitch.

-Just trust me. And the last rule is too play it cool, so i will not let our think get known. 

-So you won't let him "mark" your body.

-Yeah, my mom will kill me if she knows and i don't want to deal with slut shaming comment. 

-I feel like he's more the one who is going to end up broken hurt if you will really follow those whatever you call. Jeehee really you deserve more. You could really find someone who value you. I know you have been through some fucked up and failed relationship but you don't have to turn yourself like this?...You know.

-Why when a man want to have fun nobody sees an issue but when a woman do there is actually a problem..

I said hugging one her pillow as i let my chin rest on the top of the pillow. 

-Jeehee, do you like him or not?

Nya took my hand and asked me in my eyes. I took a big breath and smiled.

-Nya, i'm just attracted to him, nothing more. Please don't worry about me.

-Jeehee, i saw you crying the last time at the party. You would be worried too, i swear.

-What do you mean? i asked suddenly confuse and afraid of what other dumb shit i did.

-I don't know you seemed crush down and you kept telling me you are worth nothing and people always hurt you. That you feel lonely, you feel empty and you just want someone to give some warm...

I was speechless. I felt like someone just threw me naked in the street without asking me. I really said that? 

-What do you mean...

I replied a small voice.

-Why do you think i was devastated and screaming at Jungkook? Like bro you were so fucking wasted. I was seeing you flirting with Taehyung and then i lost you and i found you giving this fuckboy a blowjob and you were so fucking drunk. I felt like he took advantage of you.

-Nya stop. Jungkook isn't that type of person. We talked about the situation actually yesterday and i was the one making big moves on him. He just gave up and he wasn't that sober either.