Dear Baby,
I don't really know what to write. Your Aunt Alex gave me this journal to write letters to you in. I guess let me start off by saying: I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not giving you the life you deserve. I'm sorry your father isn't here with us. I'm sorry you never get to meet him. I'm sorry in advance for not being a good mother. Don't get me wrong. I'm so excited to meet you. But, to be honest, I'm scared out of my mind. I'm scared I'm going to do everything wrong. I know everyone makes mistakes, but I don't know how I'm going to do anything right without your father here. He was the most kind, brave, and selfless man I've ever known. You would have loved him. He was so excited to meet you. He loved you so much. And I know that wherever he is, he always will. I don't know what our life together holds, but I know that I already love you so much and I haven't even met you yet.
Love,
Mommy
I put down my pen as I smile at the letter I wrote to my baby. I close the journal and put it back in my purse. I look up to see the busy office of CatCo. Reporters running in and out of Snapper's office. Some people sitting at desks typing away and some drinking coffee while socializing with others. I look over at the televisions, but quickly look away. I know that if I see someone in danger on TV, I'll feel obligated to save them. James walks out of his office and comes over to my desk. "Hey, Kara, did you get an interview with Supergirl for your article yet?" He asks. "Yes, I did." I say, handing him a folder with my article inside. "Supergirl has a lot of time on her hands at the moment, so getting an interview was not that hard." We laugh, as he understandingly nods. "Gotcha. Well, I'll give this to Snapper for you." He offers. "Oh, no, I got it. I can't stand just sitting behind my desk much longer." I laugh as I get up to take the folder to Snapper. I start to walk over to his office when I hear a police siren outside. I stop in my tracks. James knows what I'm thinking. "Kara, I'm sure the police have it under control. Just try to block it out." He says, waking over to me. "I can't, James, I'm the girl of steel. I've tried, but I can't help it. I have to save the people of National City. It's my job." I say, looking at the TV. I see a news reporter saying their is a robbery taking place at the National City bank. "There are 15 hostages inside the bank. I have been informed that the robbers have guns and a few bombs. The police are doing their best to get these people out safely and are on the phone with the robbers as we speak, trying to meet their demands. Please, if you're watching this Supergirl, help us." The reporter says. "Kara, you can't possibly go out there in your condition. It's dangerous." James says, putting his hands on my shoulders. "James, you make it sound like I'm dying. I'm literally bulletproof. I have to help them. They need me." I say, shrugging off his hands and starting to walk away. "Kara, I understand that you want to help them, but it's not safe. You have to think about your baby. If it makes you feel any better, Guardian can go down there." He says trying to block my path. "Get out of my way, James." I say, raising my voice, trying to get past him. "Kara, stop. Please don't-" He's interrupted by someone in the office who shouts, "Look! It's Supergirl!" On the TV, Supergirl flies into the bank. Seconds later, she emerges with 4 men in handcuffs. The office erupts with cheers and claps. "J'onn." I whisper to myself. The reporter walks over to Supergirl/J'onn. "Supergirl, you just saved those hostages, we're so grateful!" She puts the microphone up to Supergirl/J'onn. "I'm just doing my job." Supergirl/J'onn says, smiling. She winks at the camera and flies away. "You saw it here first, folks. Supergirl has done it again." The reporter says, smiling at the camera. I sigh, walking away from James, over to Snapper's office. "Kara, wait." James calls after me. "I'm sorry, Kara. I know you wanted to help them, but look on the bright side: J'onn was there." He says, trying to cheer me up. "Yeah, everyone's safe. That's all that matters." I say walking into Snapper's office and setting the folder on his desk. "Now, if you'll excuse me, James, I have work to do." I walk back to my desk and pretend to be busy at work so James will leave me alone. "Please don't be upset, Kara." James says. "I'm not upset, James." I lie. "You were right. I shouldn't be out there. Not right now, at least." "Are you sure you're alright?" He asks. "James, I'm fine. Now please, I have to work." He walks back into his office. I let out a sigh. James was right. I have to start thinking of the baby. What if I went out there? What if something happened to the baby? I would've never forgiven myself. Trying to hold back tears, I take a notebook out of my desk drawer. I open it up to the first page where I hide a picture of Mon-El. As I stare at his handsome, smiling face, I think about what I would say to him if he were here right now. I pick up my pen and start to write down my thoughts.
Dear Mon-El,
I miss you so much. You have no idea how hard it is to not have you in my life right now. I wish you were here with me and our baby. I'm so scared. I don't know how I'm going to do any of this without you. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you. Even though you are gone, I know I will always have a piece of you with me: our baby. I will give everything I have to make sure that our child has the best life. I love you so much, boy from Daxam.
Love,
Your girl from Krypton
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