Lonely ; Being lonely doesn't you have nobody next to you. It's feeling sad at night and realising you have nobody to talk to. Nobody to tell your feelings to or how your day went. It's like being surrounded by a sea of people and feel like you don't belong with them, the fear of talking to them because you don't want to annoy them more. You feel like you annoy them with just your presence, you don't want to talk to because you know they won't hear you, it's like talking to a wall, so you swallow your words and stay silent. Nobody understands you theres no reason to try explaining . They say they can relate but in all reality they can't, you don't want them to feel pity , you don't want to see it in their eyes. So you suffer in silence letting the pain eat away at you. And to me thats better then feeling like your the only one. Sometimes i feel like my friends secretly hate me , or they don't even exist . I struggle to much with being social , i rather read a book then try talking to someone who doesn't care , who doesn't even hear a word that i say. It's like it goes through one ear and out the other. I'd rather keep my secrets and feelings to myself then let someone know and use it against you i'd rather stay strong and silent then let someone see me at my weakest .
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