struggling with the hate | z.m b2

Chapter 37: Trust game is weak

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Zayn's POV

"I'll come back in few minutes." My sister gets out, closing the door behind her, we hear her shout at my mother to stay inside the car but I can already hear her steps getting closer to the door.

Chelsea stands up and takes the clothes while she walks upstairs. I put my boxer on and walk over to the door, opening it aingd see Waliyha talking to mum in the doorstep.

"Sorry... we didn't know you were..." My sister starts and my mother gives me a look. It's not my fault she didn't knock.

"Um," I interrupt her, feeling embarrassed, "come inside while I go shower? The baby is in the kitchen and..."

"Oh my God!" Waliyha pushes me to run towards my crying baby. "He's crying and you two were..."

"Waliyha!" Mum warns and kisses my cheek before following her to the kitchen.

I leave them with Zachary and run upstairs and find Chelsea running the shower.

"Can I shower with you?" I ask, kissing her shoulder.

"Yeah, damn, I feel embarrassed." She covers her face and I take her hands off her to kiss her nose and lips. Her cheeks turn pink.

"Don't be. Sex is part of life and it's not the first time Waliyha finds me like this..." I get inside the shower after taking my boxers off and look at Chelsea who stands frozen, staring at me.

"Not the first time? I mean, she has found you in bed with a girl in bed?"

"Chelsea, don't..." I groan.

"Tell me with who you lost your virginity." She pulls me out of the bathtub.

I sigh.

I'm fucked.

"Let's take a shower we smell like sex."

Why is she asking this now? Does she really want to know? She knows I didn't lose it to her so what's the use?

"I'm not going to shower with you if you don't tell me," Chelsea is about to walk back to the room and I stop her when I speak.

"With Perrie."

She turns around and I catch her eye twitching.

"I lost my virginity to Perrie." I ran my fingers through my hair and shrug, "but it was just sex, we didn't make love."

"How many times you told Perrie you were making love to her? I bet you thought you were marrying her and..."

I walk towards her, and interrupt her, "I lost my virginity to her, yeah, but you were the first person I made love to and saw a future together." I hold her shoulders, "what I have with you it's real, how can you think I'm feeling the same way I felt with Perrie? Do you see me putting a ring on her finger? Do you see me living with her? Do you see me carrying Perrie and my baby? No so stop because you're making me feel bad."

I get into the shower and close the curtain, letting her know I will shower without her. Feeling like a total dick because she was here first, I pull the curtain again to ask her to shower first but she isn't in the bathroom anymore. I splash water onto my face and rub it, I think I wasn't harsh with Chelsea but it's the only tone to make her realise that I am in love with her.

Because the only way to make her realise that I am in love with her is, marrying her already.

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"It's quite easy, you just have to be sure that you're cleaning the baby's bum correctly," My mum tells Chelsea and lets her put his pamper one. Waliyha glances at Chelsea and me, noticing that we're acting awkward, we smile at each other. "Zayn, are you paying attention, right? You're the father and you have to do as much as her."