not all people experience proper love. not all people know how to handle certain situations. and not all people can live life without having a care in the world. Paris and Herbert raised together and then turned to lovers. Grief causes many things b...
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"Fuck!!!! I don't know how I let myself slip up, this isn't like me. I was more careful then this, I know I was!" I said crying into my mothers arms.
She knew it was nothing to say to be able to soothe the amount of pain and frustration I was going through at the time.
I was hurt, I couldn't believe this, what about me? What about my future? How could I be so dumb?
"Look at me mamas, calm down. It's ok, this is all apart of the man upstairs plan for your life. You need to look at this as a blessing mommy. Smile and wipe those tears away, I got you. I promise." My mom said while lifting my head up.
I just looked at her, tears still rolling down my face. Her words were helpful but not helpful enough to remove what feels like an 1000 pound weigh on my back.
"Mom I cant do this, it's not the right time, now is really not the right time." I said beginning to cry even more.
"Awn baby it's going to be ok. It's always the right time. Let's just take things step by step. No need to stress even more than what you already have." She said.
Her voice was so soft, along with the soft fingers that were wiping away each tear that fell.
"What am I going to do?" I cried.
"First thing first your going to go get your keys and your going to tell him! And that's something that your going to do right now young lady." She said standing to her feet.
I couldn't believe that the first thing she wanted me to do was talk to him. I thought that was atleast like number 3 on the to do list.
"But Ma-"
She cut me off before I could even finish my sentence.
"Don't even say it. Just do what I told you to do. It's time for you to take matters into your own hands. That starts now."
I wiped the rest of my tears and stood from the ground. I hesitated to grab my keys but eventually ended up completing the simple yet hard task.
Simple because it's something I do everyday, hard because of the situation i'm in.
I walked to the door and looked at my mom. I felt the tears building up again and decided it would be best if I kept them in.
"Listen baby, no matter how he takes the news just remember that i'll always be here for you. I love you. And I love all of you. Your my daughter, i'm your mama and I really do love you." She said kissing my forehead.
The amount of love I have for my mother was unexplainable. My mom is a real OG and she's always made sure that me and my brother Pierre was straight. My dad wasn't there, but my mother was. And for that, I'll love her no matter the circumstances.
"I love you too mama. I'm just scared because what if he reacts wrong. You know it's hard. Cap just died 1 day ago and you know how close him and herb were." I explained
"Baby and that's why he should be 10 times happier. Cap sent y'all a gift right when he was taken from y'all. His death hit everyone hard, he was like another son to me. They all are. Just give him a chance mamas. Please" She said grabbing my hand.
I nodded and proceeded out the door. Looking back I said I love you one more time then hopped in my car.
That women's literally my whole heart.
Literally.
15 minutes later.
I pulled up to his house. Things didn't look how they usually looked. It was crowded. I guess everyone was there so they could all be surrounded by love doing this tough time.
I parked my car and then got out. Walking towards the house my heart started to ache. Seeing all the faces full of tears, made me realize I hadn't even came to realization on Cap being gone.
Guess I had a lot on my plate.
I pushed past everyone ignoring all the "heys" and "sorry for you lost" coming from the people around me. I walked into the house and saw Mally sitting on the couch.
When I walked closer he stood up and embraced me into a tight hug.
"Sis I been calling you all day. Pierre is hurting and so is Herb. You know this hit them hard. It hit all of us hard." He said letting me go.
"Yea I know. But I need to talk to Herb. Where he at?" I asked
Mally looked around not saying nothing.
I knew what this was.
"Mally." I said trying to meet the glaze of his eyes.
He still remained quiet.
"It's important." I said.
"Check his room." I heard a voice say from behind me.
When I turnt around I saw that it was Jamiyah, his sister.
I smiled at her then went off towards his room.
When I arrived the door was closed. I twisted the nob and realized that it wasn't locked.
"What the f-" He said jumping off the bed and pulling up his pants as I barged in.
I walked all the way into the room before chuckling to myself.
"Really Herb!? My best friend bro!" I screamed getting in his face.
Him and my best friend started to scream at me but I couldn't even hear them. I was SO pissed.
I was so upset that I had no words.
I dug in my pocket and pulled out the ultrasound chuckling to myself before speaking.
"Damn. It's funny cause I was coming to tell both of y'all the news." I said looking at him and Kiah. The bitch who I thought was my friend.
A tear slid down my cheek and I quickly wiped it away.
I threw the ultrasound at him before storming out. I ran until I reached outside.
I got to my car and started breathing really heavy. My adrenaline was pumping and I wanted to do something reckless but I chose to just go home and vent to my mother.
I strapped up into the car and sped home like my life depended on it.
I made it to my block within 10 minutes but I couldn't get to my driveway because of all the police cars.
"What den happen now?" I said getting out the car so I could go ask an officer.
I walked closer to the officers then seen a police coming out my front door.
"WHAT HAPPEN THIS IS MY HOUSE?" I said screaming trying to get closer
"Ma'am I'm going to need to you to calm down." The officer said trying to keep me from going past the tape.
Him trying to grab me didn't work because I broke free and sprinted to the front door which was already wide open.
I walked in and seen my mother on the floor laying in a puddle of her own blood.
I froze. I was stuck. I couldn't move. But then a sharp scream erupted from my throat.
