The Ugly Twin #Wattys2017

Chapter 31 - Explotion.

Let the hidden words spoken, I know that I 'm not the one for you.

Have never been, and will never be.

If giving up is the way to free me from these, then let it be.

When you feel that you have to stop running, do it.

Shout out your worries, free yourself.

If it's not meant for you, leave.

Let the destiny find its own place back in this tiny little world.

Jongin stared at his latest blog post for the last time before sighed. his heart throbbed in pain whenever Sehun's face flashed through his mind.

Chanyeol had already fallen asleep with earphones both in his ears. he went to sleep once he finished the plane's meal. Chanyeol studied a lot these days and instead of having a date with his pillow and bed, he stayed up late for his books instead. no wonder the 8 hours sleep he took last night still hadn't enough.

Jongin turned his head to his right and met Chanyeol's calm sleeping face,

The giant's eyes were shut tightly, hid the rich brown colored orbs behind them. His small red lips parted a little, creating a cute view for Jongin.

Jongin watched as Chanyeol's chest rose up and down. Chanyeol was really in a deep slumber.

Jongin shifted in his seat and took a better view of Chanyeol's face. To those flawless soft milky white skin, tall nose, perfectly moistured lips, and down to his v-line. Chanyeol was beautiful and Jongin had known it from the start. Back then in senior high, Chanyeol was one of those popular kids. He had the looks, the brains, and also personality. Jongin loved to hang around Chanyeol's school. he would wait for the older to come out from his classes and they both would go get patbingsu while chatting around. Jongin could remember clearly how the girls and boys turned their attention to Chanyeol whenever he passed by.

Jongin bit his lower lip. Well, he had never thought Chanyeol's type would be him. An ugly duckling Kim Jongin. Jongin thought Chanyeol's type would be the hot sexy Bora or the natural beauty Sandara from his senior high school. Chanyeol ended up choosing him.

Jongin's eyebrows knitted together as he examined Chanyeol's face. Was this boy even serious about his confession last time?  The more Jongin thought about that,  the more it didn't make sense. Well,  Sehun even lied to him.  Chanyeol wasn't an exception either. But Chanyeol is his best friend. Would Chanyeol had that heart to lie to him?

Jongin let out a long sigh and he moved back to his original position, no longer boring holes on Chanyeol's face. The dark-skinned boy turned his attention outside, shifting his attention towards the clouds. It looked like cotton candies.

Jongin's lips curved into a smile. He laid his head on the window. Too high above the sky,  feet no longer touching the ground... Jongin couldn't believe that he finally could fly on the plane again.

How does it feel to be dead? Would it feel good?  Would it mean no longer pain on the earth? Would it mean happiness?

Jongin blinked as a sudden hotness appeared at the corner of his eyes.

Would it mean to be loved? Would it mean there was no longer betrayal? Would it mean no longer one-sided-love?

Jongin raised his hand slowly, fingers touching the surface of the window.

Would it be good to die?

Jongin was surprised with the sudden noise from the plane's speakers. The stewardess gave the information that their plane was about to land in a few minutes. Jongin's face brightened and he turned to shook Chanyeol lightly.