We had just finished season 3, it was now February. It was time for cheer tryouts at school. I decided that since I was done with season 3, I mean I still had meetings and photoshoots, I would try out. When it came time for tryouts I was ready, after about a week they posted who made the team. I waited till there was space for me to look and what I saw made my day. I had made the team. I ran to Noah and told him the news and he was happy for me. He had started changing but I still loved him, I just wasn't sure if he loved me the same. It's like he didn't as much as he used to. Looking at put me in pain being around him put me in pain. He used to be able to tell even when I was in the tiniest bit of pain now it's like he doesn't know me because he can't tell that I am in pain. He used to make me feel safe now I just feel lost. Then one night I woke up and everything was so cold and lonely. I could have swore that Noah was alseep right beside me but when I woke up he wasn't there no one was. Then I knew. I was in the upside down. The one I thought was sapposed to be made up. But I was there. I tried waking myself up but it wasn't a nightmare. This was real. So I started to cry and to scream for Noah. "NOAH!!!! NOAH!!!!! NOAH!!!!!"I kept screaming it. Then I heard a voice. I knew who's it was it was Noah's. "Y/n are you ok?! What's wrong?!" He kept asking me. I couldn't answer I tried but I couldn't. Then I opened my eyes and he was right there crying and so was I. I grabbed him and he held me tight. I felt safe this time. I don't think it was him that was changing. It was me but everything whent back to normal and I felt safe. Safe with him. Safe in his arms. Safe in his words. Safe. Safe is how everything got better. I kept having these little problems. I kept going to the upside down. I didn't know how to stop it and neither did Noah. I was scared to scared.
