I'm allowed to be happy.

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by mikeyfan101

by mikeyfan101

This was it. I had to tell Mikey. I had to tell him why I was upset, feeling guilty about being happy.
"I need to tell you something and it might change how you feel about me" I stated, unable to look into his eyes.

Mikey's POV:
What does she need to tell me? It can't really be that bad, can it?

Lilly's POV:
"A Few years ago, when I was 15, I was in a relationship with who I thought was the love of my life. I put everything into this relationship, I stopped being friends with Ella because he didn't like her, I never went home because he told me my family hated me and I was better to stay with him. I was young and vulnerable. He took advantage of that. If I was to ever say anything out of line, he would always make me regret it, it used to hurt me but I just couldn't get out of the relationship. I didn't even try." My mouth just kept running off with itself telling my story until I got interrupted by Mikey.
"Lilly, did he...did he hit you?" He struggled to get these words out.
I slightly nodded, enough for him to see.
Mikey tried to pull me into a hug, he obviously felt sorry for me but no. I pushed him away.

"Don't feel sorry for me, I'm not a victim, I could have got out of this relationship whenever I wanted to but I chose not to. I chose. I wasn't forced. I don't deserve a good relationship now when I carried on with a twisted, messed up one."

"Lilly, you were young, easily manipulated, he probably made you feel like he was in love with you and was the right person for you. You do deserve happiness. More than anyone. You deserve to know what true love feels like. Don't push other people away because he didn't let you have anyone else. You've got Ella back, and now you've me and all the boys. And we're here for you no matter what." Mikey said all this which made a tear form in my eye and roll down my cheek.
He pulled me into a hug and this time I didn't try to push him away. He made me happy, and that okay. I'm allowed to be happy.

We stayed in each other's arms for at least 1/2 hour when it started to get chilly so we headed back inside to a sleeping house except for Rye who looked very smug when we came back in holding hands. How could one person change my life so much in the space of basically a week?