Lost In Harry Potter

Talking With Harry, Losing Everything

After taking Hermione to the hospital wing I was sent to my own room after explaining to  Madam Poppy Pomfrey how I found Hermione in the girl's lavatory. Once again as I tried to enter my room Draco stopped me.

"What did you do?" he asked.

"Nothing Draky. Nothing, can I go to bed now."

"No."

"No?"

"We are going to talk. So tell me where you really went to."

"There is nothing to talk about. Just leave it alone. Godfather has already told you to leave it be."

As Draco went to grab me I stepped away and the both of us surprised to hear Pansy calling for me. I smirked and went to my room. I noticed that Draco was glaring at Pansy when I turned to look at him when I reached our door.

"Why did you do that?" I asked Pansy.

She just shrugged and got into bed. Once I ready myself for bed I laid down and let sleep take me.

***DREAM***

I saw two boys standing before as I walked away from Cedric before his first task began. They were dressed in Drumstrang robes. One reminded me of Draco and the other of Harry.

I watched as they went to hide. So I followed them for a while.

"What are you two doing?"

"Mother?" "Aunt Lizzy?" Both boys whispered thinking I didn't hear them.

I eyed them both before I felt myself be stunned and one boy whisper "forgive me, Aunt Lizzy."

***END DREAM***

I woke up gasping for air I knew that I had just seen something from the future. I felt tears falling because I knew that I was being warned in a way.  I was dating Cedric but so far three dreams have shown me that I would be with Harry in the end.  How could that be when I am deceiving him this year. With Riddle controlling me. Maybe I should tell him the truth about the diary. I got dressed for the day and headed up for breakfast in the great hall.

I spotted Harry and waved at him before sitting with Draco and the others that stayed behind for some breakfast. Once I was done eating I left Draco to walk to the spot that Harry and I would normally meet to talk during the weekends alone. I only had to wait for few minutes before he showed up.

"Beth?" He asked carefully.

I looked at him worried, "Yes, Harry?"

"I'm sorry if I pushed you away. When we thought that your brother was the heir of Slytherin."

"Oh Harry, you were just being careful. I understand that really I do. Thank you for the charm. Who told you about my favorite flower?"

Harry blushed before replying, "Hermione might have told on the train when we left for summer break."

"Harry, you know that I will always be there for you when you need me right?"

"I know don't be angry with me but I have to ask again. But have you had any dreams of the past?"

"Harry you ask every weekend when we meet like this. The answer is the same I have not and when I do I will tell you I promise."

"Your blushing, why?"

I looked at him shocked, "What I am not. You are seeing things." okay maybe I was but it was because I saw the future, not the past. "Will you stop looking at me like that, please."

"You have seen something?"

I smiled at his teasing and smirked, "Yes just not the past Harry."

When I saw his smile disappear it worried me more than that anything I saw would always worry him.

"Harry?"

"Is something you can tell me about?" He asked unsure of himself.

"I would rather not talk about it until I am sure that it comes to past. But I can tell you that you are still alive."

"What? That is not what I wanted to know. Does Gryffindor win the cup."

"Oh, in that case, its hard to tell that future keeps changing."

"Now you are just playing with my feelings."

"Harry, you know that I can not tell you that." sighing "Harry please promise me that you will keep yourself safe when things get worst before they get better."

  I stood up to leave him with that warning. But he grabbed my hand.  

"Beth, what are you saying."

I smiled and pulled my hand away hoping that he understood what I was saying and would leave it as that.

"What do you know Beth?" he asked anyway.

I looked up to the skies, "Harry, I know that this year has been hard you and all our friends. But more so for you and Hermione. I know what is being done this year is not completely a surprise to me but it is the only way to save...Just promise me that you will..." I looked at him with tears in my eyes, "Please know that I enjoyed our friendship it means a lot to me."

I walked away and when I thought I was out of his sight I ran to my room to find that stupid book that was going to be my end. It was days later that I entered the bathroom that belonged to Myrtle, I made a deal with her that so long as she made it believable for Harry I would not throw the book at her. She agreed only because she wanted to see Harry again. I threw the book at the wall and left.

I could feel the book calling to me later in the night when Harry had used it. The book was calling for me to get it back and I tried to fight it because how was I going to get it from Harry now. I knew what I had to do and I hated myself for using Ginny this way. So I the following morning I went searching for her and cast the spell that I dreaded most. I forced her to search the room for the book and made her forget that she had done it. I made sure to use the magic that came from my Veela so that no one would know that I had done it.

It was days later that I hated myself even more, but I very proud so proud of her. I did what I was told to do by Riddle and no longer had control over myself. I wrote a letter to my father telling him that I was losing control and the end was soon coming. I would visit Hermione Harry and Ronald wasn't around.