His Time Ran Out (Jamilams fanfic)

One Night

"Stop!" Alex yelled.

"What? Why are you telling me to stop I just want to talk to you," John spoke.

"I just need some time alone John, please," Alex said as he turned the corner toward the bathroom. John heard the bathroom door shut and lock in a matter of seconds. John sunk to the floor and hugged his knees. He knew Alex had been stressed from college but he didn't know it was that bad. 15 minutes had gone by and Alex was still in the bathroom. John stood and walked to the bathroom door.

"Babe, please, I just want to talk to you, I just want to hear what's on your mind," John spoke quietly. Immediately after John stopped talking he heard the door click open. John walked in the bathroom and saw a bloody razor blade sitting next to Alex. He was curled up on the ground, hugging his knees sobbing. John walked over to him and sat next to him on the ground.

"Alexander, please, look at me," John said. Before Alex could turn his head, John put Alex's head in his lap.

"Let me see your wrist, now!" John demanded. Alex hesitated so, John pulled his arm up so his wrist was visible. There were several large, bloody cuts just below his palm.

"Why Alex? Why did you do this to yourself? You could kill yourself and never see me again," John spoke trying not to break down in tears.

"That's why I stopped," Alex said sobbing his eyes out. John hugged him real tight and kissed his forehead. At least 20 minutes went by and they continued to sit on the bathroom floor. John was going to get up but he realized that Alex was asleep on his lap. John didn't want to wake his precious baby from deep slumber so, he stayed there and fell asleep. John woke up to see Alex making coffee and getting ready for school. John stood up and stretched then walked to the kitchen. He snuck up behind Alex very quietly and set his head on his shoulder and his hands on his waist. Alex jumped and they both laughed.

"Hey baby, how did you sleep?" John asked Alex.

"Good! How did you sleep John?" 

"Good, except you kept drooling all over my shirt," John giggled and sat at the kitchen table. Alex handed him a cup of coffee and sat down in the chair across from him. There was silence for about five seconds straight, then Alex spoke.

"Uh, hey, I'm sorry about last night."

"Do you actually want to kill yourself Alex? You know that makes me scared babe."

"Sometime, yes. Other times, no," Alex spoke. John got a worried look on his face. "Just don't worry about it. I have to leave," He sipped the rest of his coffee and rushed to get ready. John sat there thinking about what he would do if something would ever happen to Alexander. He started to tear up and soon those tears would turn into an ocean. Alex had walked back into the kitchen and saw John crying. He ran over to him and sat down.

"Babe, what's wrong?"

"I don't know what I would ever do without you Alex!" Alex wrapped his arms around John and made him stand up.

"I'm not that important John, trust me," Alex said.

"But yes you are, you are my life. I could never imagine me without you!" John mumbled. Alex looked him straight in the eye and pulled him in for a kiss. Their mouths finally met and Alex jumped into John's arms like a chair. The kiss seemed to last for an eternity. Alex jumped out of his arms and stood face to face with his lover. They were still kissing and Alex slid his hands in John's pants little by little. Then, they stopped. Alex looked at the clock and noticed he was late for his class. He rushed out the door and John sat on the couch and turned the TV on.

"I can't wait till he gets home!" John wanted to cuddle his baby and make him feel safe and accepted.