I Care// Lucaya

What's Wrong Then

A week later//

Maya POV:

I still show up everyday, but I go closer to dinner to miss Riley. She heads over right after school with Farkle in tow. Once I get there, we stick to homework and then I leave before he can talk to me. Jane still invited me over for chili this week but i declined. I feel bad about taking all of her food, no matter how utterly amazing it is. Riley keeps trying to apologize and hang out with me but I'm not really in the mood. Ever. At least Zay's coming back this week. Too bad I'm not going to be able to see him until tomorrow since I have to meet with Lucas at the hospital. I'm about to open the door when I hear yelling.

"How could you just let her go, again?"

"I tried to say I'm sorry but she doesn't care"

"You fucked up big time man"

"I know that ok?"

"I mean even your mom loves her, and she hates every girl that's ever talked to you"

"I know!" I knocked to let them know that I'm coming in. I walked in and saw some boy standing facing Lucas, who was sitting up in his bed. Neither of them bothered to look at me so I spoke.

Maya- "Um, hello? I'm here and would like a child size amount of attention please. Not too much that I feel uncomfortable but enough that I feel like I'm wanted here." The boy turns around and smiles.

Zay- "Of course Honey Nugget."

Maya- "Zaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy!!!" I jumped him and he managed to catch me somehow. I gave him a huge hug, then punched him in the arm.

Zay- "Oww. What was that for?"

Maya- "For leaving me. I swear Riley's trying to turn me into her now, Farkle and Smackle are still cute together, and this one could have died."

Zay- "So basically, not much has changed since I left." Lucas looks at me and I squirm. "Maya..."

Maya- "Before I tell you, I have a proposition. Since Lucas and Riley are dating, they have each other. Lucas and Farkle are almost best friends now, and Riley's always liked Smackle. So, what if we drop the idiots and become best friends?"

Zay- "Already done!" Lucas looked slightly suprise but I remembered why Zay and I are so close. He knows just what to say, can see when I'm upset, can understand my words, and still has fun with me. He's the brother I always wanted. "So, tell me what they did wrong."

Lucas- "We didn't-"

Zay- "Well Maya sure as hell didn't do anything wrong which means that Riley and you did." Lucas stops talking.

Maya- "They said some rude things about me." I guess Lucas hadn't told him everything when I walked in earlier.

Zay- "That's never bothered you so much as to want to downgrade Riley to just a friend."

Maya- "They said them when they thought I couldn't hear, behind my back." He shook his head in understanding and gave me a tighter hug. A single tear rolls down my face as I tell him what happened.

Zay- "Lucas what the hell is wrong with you?!?" Both of us jumped back at how angry he sounded.

Lucas- "Dude calm down it's just Maya." Ouch. Zay looks at my reaction and I try to fake it so he doesn't get more angry but he can read me easily.

Zay- "It's just Maya? Maya is everything to me. She's the most loyal, caring, and selfless person any of us have ever met. She comprises her own happiness without a thought day in and day out for everyone. She's my sister and I love and appreciate her more than either you or Riley can even comprehend. The only person who could possibly understand is Farkle, but he's so busy being head over heels for Riley, that he doesn't notice to what extent she's hurting. Do you want to know why she's really mad at me for leaving? Because she thinks that none of you actually care about her. You just put up with and/or pity her." He turned to face me, out of breath from yelling at Lucas. "I agree that they're idiots because they won't realize how amazing you are until you're gone. And I never want you to leave, so for me, please, stay." Zay starts crying and I feel bad for hurting him. I'm so selfish. "Maya you're not selfish. Care about yourself for once ok?" I know I didn't say that out loud. He just knew. Zay kept crying while Lucas keeps asking what's wrong with me. "Maya, promise me you will at least try. For me, and Farkle, and your mom ok? Best friends remember?" Im crying with Zay now and we hugging while Lucas won't stop asking what's wrong. Ugh! I'm not in the mood for his bull right now.

Maya- "Am I even your friend? I mean I know you don't like me in a romantic way, but at all?"

Lucas- "Of course I do. How can you even ask that?"

Maya- "What's wrong with me then?"

Lucas- "How should I know? You refuse to tell us anything." I shake my head and laugh dryly through my tears.

Maya- "Farkle knew and I never told him. Zay knew what was going on and he wasn't even here. They actually recognize the fact that I'm in the room and I know because they noticed. If it wasn't for them and my mom, I wouldn't be here at all. And Zay, I promise I will try as hard as I can. Once me and Riles make up, it will be back to normal I promise."

Zay- "You pinky swear?"

Maya- "Zay..."

Zay- "Do I look like I'm joking?"

Maya- "Ok fine I swear. Look at us, acting like fucking 3rd graders."

Zay- "There she is!" He gave me a kiss on the forehead. "Can we keep her? She's much more fun!"

Lucas- "Who?!? What is wrong with Maya?"

Zay- "She's suicidal you idiot! She has been since New Years!" Lucas looked at me with a face that I couldn't read. "She was already quite depressed but it escalated pretty quickly. Thank god Farkle finally put it all together so he could help me. Oh that reminds me," he turned and grabbed my arms, pulling up my sleeves. The scars were about 2 weeks old and itched like hell, but Zay called me every night and Farkle comes over every other day to check on me. They make me feel loved. My mom knows but we can't afford help or medicine, and I don't want the Matthew's to know so, they do the best they can to take care of me. "Proud of you Honey Nugget. I know it bothers you now but just think about in the future when the scars don't itch anymore. When they act as a reminder instead of temptation. You and me, forever ok?"

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