My Cold Princess [J.J.K] *Editing*

|14| I've Changed...

Y/N Pov

Suddenly I received a text message from someone. I looked at my phone to see who it was...

Kai- Y/N hey. I've asked Chanyeol to give me your number. Please meet me on the rooftop after school. We have a lot to talk about...

My heart started beating so fast, after reading his message... I didn't want to talk about the past, because, it hurt me very much... Every time I remembered anything about it, I couldn't stop crying... And it's all his fault.

Suddenly the bell rang and I had to go to maths class.

Jungkook Pov

I was already sitting in the maths class, waiting for the teacher, when I saw Kai, who was walking in my direction.

Kai- Hey Jungkook, is the place next to you taken?

Jungkook- Oh sorry it's Y/N's place..

Kai- Oh sorry, so I'll seat next to Jimin I guess... Have you done the homework by the way? Some exercises were really difficult, I couldn't do them...

I didn't, but Y/N did all the exercises instead of me, so I decided to show him my homework.

Jungkook- Here it is, you can look for the ones you didn't understand.

Kai- Oh thanks...

He was looking for the exercises and observing them, when suddenly he looked at me in surprise and said..

Kai- Wow.. your handwriting is so similar to Y/N's...

I got really confused... How does he know Y/N's handwriting?

Kai- Oh nice job, you're a genius, how could you do all these hard exercises? Wow!

Jungkook- Oh thank you.

I chuckled, when suddenly saw Y/N entering the class. She walked to her seat next to me. Her face got pale, when she saw Kai, who was talking to me. He looked at her, she gave him a cold glare and then looked at me..

Kai- I should go, seat next to Jimin, I guess. See you later Jugkook. Y/N.. I'll be waiting for you after school...

She nodded didn't even looking at him, he turned away, walked to Jimin and sat next to him. I was really surprised... Why would he be waiting for her? What were they hiding? I needed to find out.

Y/N- Hey Kookie!

She looked at me and smiled, I smiled back, but couldn't stop thinking about what these two were hiding...

Jungkook- Hello, cold princess.

Y/N- Stop calling m that!

She got annoyed, I chucked... I decided to ask her about Kai..

Jungkook- Um.. Y/N... How does Kai know you handwriting?..

I could notice confusion on her face...

Y/N- I have no idea...

I knew she was lying, it was written on her face. I decided to follow her silently after school and find out their secret...

Y/N Pov

A few minutes later, I could hear the bell ringing. So, I grabbed my bag immediately and left the classroom. I was running fast to the rooftop, so no one could follow me...

I stopped running and found myself standing on the rooftop.... A few moments later, I could see Kai, who was walking in my direction. He came to me and stopped.

Kai- Y/N... I don't even know what to say... I feel so guilty about everything I've done to you...

Y/N- Oh really? Don't make me laugh please! You never feel guilty! You enjoy hurting people. You have been bullying me in middle school, because I was a nerd... You enjoyed laughing at me.. I had to do all your homework, or you would do something awful to me. You made everyone laugh at me, because I was ugly and a nerd...

Kai- Y/N please...

Y/N- No... Let me finish what I'm saying! You made everyone laugh at me... And one day I when I was already really fed up with everything, with my life, I decided to finish it by myself...

I raised up a sleeve of my t-shirt and made him look at the scar on my wrist.. I couldn't hold my tears back anymore...

Y/N-Look at the scar Kai... That's what your behavior made me do... That day, I lost so much blood, that I was hardly rescued... I wish I hadn't been.. I wish I'd died that day...

Kai- Y/N stop please! I can't hear any of these anymore... please...

Y/N- Why? That's what you did! You have to hear it, till the end! I almost died, because of you... and you didn't even think about apologizing to me.... After that day... I never went back to middle school, because I was afraid of meeting you, I was afraid of your reaction. I was sure you would laugh at me, because of what I did...

Kai- I would never do that Y/N.. I..

Y/N- You would Kai, because you're a horrible person! When I went to the high school, I decided to change... I decided to become a strong girl, who couldn't be bullied by anyone! I've changed my hair, my stile, everything.. I wasn't a good student anymore. I was always sleeping on the lessons and never did my homework. I did everything to make sure, no one would make fun of me anymore. But I think I tried too much to be a different person, because I ended up becoming a bitch, who enjoys bullying people, a girl that everyone hates, even her friends. But the truth is that, I'm just afraid of everyone, I'm afraid of being called a nerd again, or some horrible things you used to be calling me in the middle school... And this scar will always remember me about the worst chapter of my life, which made me similar to the last person, I wished to be alike.. It made me similar to you...

I couldn't stop crying, I didn't want him to see my weakness, but I couldn't hold my tears back.

Kai- Y/N please... you have to listen to me... Y/N.. After the day, you tried to commit a suicide, my life changed too. I knew that it was all my fault.. I knew that I ruined your life and you could die because of me... I felt really guilty, but I couldn't come and look in your eyes to apologize to you... I couldn't live with that, I was depressed all these days when you were in hospital.. I couldn't sleep at night, I was thinking about what I did and couldn't forgive myself...

I could see the pain in his eyes, he was really telling the truth, but I was too angry to forgive him..

Kai- I was even going to psychologist and could hardly move on. I've started a new life and was trying to become a better person. I've left my old friends, started studying... Y/N I've changed.... I'm not that Kai you remember from the middle school anymore, I'm another person... please Y/N... please.... forgive me....

Y/N- I appreciate that you've changed Kai... but pease stay away from me... I don't want to talk to you anymore...

I thought, that it was only Kai, I've told all the secrets about my past, everything about how I used to feel, what I was hiding all these years... but turns out I was wrong...

There was another person who heard everything I said....