My Cold Princess [J.J.K] *Editing*

|18| Hurt

Y/N Pov

I started remembering what had happened early today.

FLASHBACK

"It's late already, I think it's time to go back" He said and looked at me with a cute smile on his face. I nodded and we both got in the car. 

Jungkook didn't say a word the whole way. He was just driving with his eyes concentrating on the road, but his brain flying somewhere else. I guess he had some great problems, that were bothering him.. I wanted to help, but I didn't know how. 

"Jungkook is everything ok?" I asked, but his confused gaze made me sure, that he hadn't listened to me.

"Sorry.. What did you say?" 

"Jungkook what's happening to you? Is everything ok? Do you have any problems?" His eyes saddened, he bowed his head with his eyes avoiding mine.

"Everything is okay. Don't worry about me.."

These were the last words he said, during the whole drive to my house.

Then he stopped his car, I could see my house with no lights inside it. That meant, my sister wasn't home yet. I started worrying about where she was, because she hasn't been so late before. 

We both got out of the car and stopped in front of the gate. I looked at Jungkook, whose eyes were fixed on me. I smiled at him and said:

"Thank you for taking me to that place, it really calmed me down."

"You're welcome. I want to thank you too.. for your advices.."

I chuckled. "Yeah, I'm glad if my foolish opinions helped you."

"What?? No.. They weren't foolish at all.."

"Rally?" I said smiling like an idiot. SHIT! WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO ME?!

"Yeah.. Where's THE KIM Y/N WITH HER GREAT ALTITUDE? WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO HER?" He chuckled exposing his bunny teeth. His words made me laugh too. 

"But I like the new one more.." He said with a sweet smile, that made me blush..

He was looking at me, when I tried to avoid his gaze, because it was making me blush more and more. Suddenly I felt him coming closer to me, I looked up at him, his eyes were fixed on my lips,   he leaned forward and pressed his lips against mine. My eyes widened at his actions. I hesitated a little before kissing  back. My heart was beating really fast, when feeling his soft lips against mine. His hand travelled up to my neck, when he looked in my eyes and let go.

"I shouldn't be doing this.." He said avoiding my gaze. I got really confused.

"Jungk.." 

"Y/N look.." His words cut mine and I couldn't finish my sentence. "You deserve someone.. better than me... I'm not a good guy. I'm not the one you think.. You know nothing about me.. I..I don't deserve you to trust me. Stay away from me Y/N, if you don't want to get hurt... "

With these words he turned around, sat in his car and left.

I could feel my eyes getting teary. I had no idea what to do or what to think. I couldn't free myself from the feeling, I had for Jungkook. I just wanted to be with him, no matter if I would get hurt or not. I didn't want to see him hurt..

END OF FLASHBACK

Y/N POV

I told everything to my sister, who was looking at me with confused face. She didn't know what to say, what to advice. 

"I don't know what to do.. I think I love him" I said with low voice. 

"I have no idea what to advice.. This is the first time, you're in love.."

"Yeah... But.. does he love me back? Why did he say that I would get hurt, If I didn't stay away from him? What does all that mean?"

Yeri's eyes saddened. She was as confused as me.

"Maybe I should stay away from him? He said he's not the one I think he is. I didn't really get that."

Yeri's eyes widened. "WHAT?? ARE YOU INSANE?? ARE YOU GOING TO LOSE THE ONE YOU LOVE SO EASILY? NO KIM Y/N! THERE'S NO WAY I'M LETTING YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF AND TO JUNGKOOK."

"Ok Yeri calm down."

"You should talk to him and find out what's the matter. He's made a wrong decision, but you have to fix everything!"

"But.. how? He said doesn't want to hurt me..."

"Tell him how you feel. Tell him that you'll get hurt more, if are away from him. I'm sure he feels the same way."

"But.. "

"NO BUTS.. And make sure to find out what's bothering him!"

"And...What if he doesn't want to talk to me?" I said with sad voice.

"Believe me he does!" Yeri said. She can always put me in a good mood. 

"Ok. I'll talk to him tomorrow." I said. My words made her smile. 

I thought I was making a right decision. I couldn't lose him. I couldn't lose my first love...