International Idol[SEAQUEL] ~ Min Yoongi

(1: Purple)

So, I know at the end of my last book I said it'd be a tragedy... well I hate to bust your bubble but this isn't the one I was intending to publish first 😅

I was hoping to publish another book before this, because I had mega inspiration for it all at once and I have about 20 chapters prepared for it already. HOWEVER I lost pretty much all inspiration for it in one go and I can't for the life of me think what to write anymore.

I hope you can forgive me for getting you all excited for a mega sad book with a Tokyo Ghoul quote, but here, enjoy the sequel to Idol instead ❤️

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I'm happy here. I'm happy with my company. I'm happy with my life. I'm happy with my friends. I'm happy with my career. But I'm lonely. My mother died almost two years ago, my grandmother died of a heart attack a few months ago, my father is in prison, my sister is here, I never knew my grandfather or my dads parents. My half brother hates me.

He hates me because I'm gay.

I never really labelled my sexuality but I've always known I wasn't straight. In high school I ended up with his best friend, Park Jimin - Yes as inBTS's Park Jimin - and he found out. He wasn't exactly happy. He stopped talking to us. This was almost six years ago and I haven't spoken to him since. He went from being my closest friend to hating my guts.

I haven't tried to keep in touch with him. He hasn't tried to keep in touch with me.

But he has a wife and kids now. Eldest his four, youngest is three. Apparently they're happy, according to my father. But I don't know what shit that comes out of his crap hole is true.

For anyone who doesn't know, my father abused me. And my mother and sister, Liu. He started verbally abusing me when I was three or four, then he started hitting me when I was six. When I was eight he started hurting Liu too so I tried to stick up for her and made a deal: he would leave her alone and focus on me. He agreed. So he started using the leather of a belt.

It hurt a lot.

I realised he was hurting my mom too so I started making myself stronger and when I was 14 I defended her. We made a deal then too: he leaves her alone and I get her pain.

He started using the buckle.

I've got scars all over my torso and I can't use my right arm properly. I had to teach myself to write with my left hand. My mom had to stitch me up whenever he beat me. We never told anyone. We didn't even tell Liu. My mental state deteriorated a lot and I tried to... kill myself... on multiple occasions...

When I was 15 I hooked up with Jimin and when I was 16 my half brother, Gi-Gun, found us making out. He flipped shit and told my homophobic dad, then refusing to talk to either of us ever again. My dad said he was going to "cure my illness" or "make me better" whilst Gi-Gun spread rumours about Jimin and I. Eventually we split up and he signed up for BigHit Entertainment and we didn't talk until we met by chance last year.

I'm almost 21 now. Almost a man. Working my way up for a Daesang and more than happily dating Min Yoongi. Yes, Min Suga, Agust D, the producer, rapper and LGBT rights campaigner.

Liu is 19, dating Jung Hoseok from BTS and an internationally famous artist for her multimedia and abstract art. She got hired for an instalment in Paris a while ago. She's happy with Hoseok. They have few arguments, as all couples do, and go on frequent dates. It's quite cute, but I can't help the pang of anger and protectiveness every time I see them together.

So, introduction. Guess I got carried away, huh? My name is Kim Makseun, I'm 21 and I live in Seoul. I work for Jellyfish Entertainment as a singer/songwriter. I did gymnastics for fifteen years and have recently taken up Judo. I'm 5"7, 79kg and the little spoon in my relationship with my 5"6, 67kg partner.