Two Broken People

Chapter 16

Jermane

I'm a daddy. I can't believe this shit. I'm a fucking daddy. I gotta give my little girl the world. I gotta show her how a man should treat her. I gotta get myself together first.

I'm in the waiting room waiting on my therapist with Layla. I'm nervious as fuck. This is my second time here. This is when we start talking for real. Like get into the deep shit. "Fuck this shit.", I said about to stand up.

"Nooo baby do this for Asia.", Layla said stopping me. Asia is my daughter. I closed my eyes and took a few deep breaths. I opened my eyes.

"I can't just-"

"Jermane?", Jerry asked walking to us and cutting me off.

"That's me.", I said.

"Come with me please.", he said. I looked at Layla. She kissed me.

"It's okay.", she said. I nodded my head then stood up. I followed him to the room. I walked in and sat down.

"How are you Jermane?", he asked as he sat down.

"Nervious.", I said after taking a deep breath.

"That's normal. Tell me about your life."

"Now or...?"

"Your childhood.", he said. I took a deep breath and rubbed my knees.

"Okay. Well, I was umm sexually abused by my aunt, beat by my grandma and dad and left by my mom.", I said. He shook his head up and down and wrote something down.

"When did this abuse start?"

"I've been beat by my dad and grandma for as long as I can remember and my aunt first abused me when I was 7."

"Tell me about that.", he said.

"Well..."

...

He walked me back to the waiting room. "I'll see you next week.", he said holding out his hand. I shook it then walked to Layla. I tapped her knee making her look up from her phone.

"Hey baby.", she said.

"Hey.", I said.

"You ready?"

"Yeah." She stood up and we left the building. "Can you drive?"

"Mhm.", she said. I tossed her the keys and then we got in the car.

It felt good getting some of that shit off out. I been holding it in for so long it's crazy.

Layla grabbed the aux cord and I took it from her. "Why did you do that?", she asked.

"The driver don't get to control the music and drive. I got that fire so don't worry.", I said as I hooked my phone up.

"What ever." She pulled off as I looked for something to put on.

"I only love my bed and my momma, I'm sorry." I hummed more of the song to myself as I looked for the song.

"That's how you feel? For real?", she asked looking at me.

"Look at the fuckin' road!", I said grabbing the wheel.

"You only love your momma and your bed?"

"First off fuck that bitch, secondly you know I love you baby. It's just a song." She looked back at the road and started driving again.

...

We just made it to Tasha's house.

We're about to pick up Asia and take her somewhere. Where ever she wanna go is where we're going.

I got out of the car and walked to the door. I rung the bell and waited on somebody to answer it. The door opened a few seconds later. "Come in.", Tasha said moving over. I walked in.

After she closed the door she pushed me against it and kissed me. I tried not to but I kissed her back. I can't lie I miss  these lips, and the other ones.

We broke up because we just weren't right for each other, not at the moment anyways. "Wait.", I said after I broke the kiss. "I can't do this. This ain't right. Layla don't deserve to be cheated on."

"Then leave her. Leave her for us so we can be a family.", Tasha said. I thought about it for a minute. I do want to be a family. I don't know though. I gotta think about it

"I gotta think about it."

"Okay." She pecked my lips then left.

She came back with Asia.

"Hey princess.", I said getting down and hugging her.

"Hey daddy.", she said hugging me.

Layla

I locked my phone and looked at the door. Here they come.

What's on his lips? It looks like lipstick. He turned around and said something to Tasha then turned back around. It's gone.

I knew it. He's gonna leave me for her. I unlocked my phone and texted Yamaree.

Me:He's gonna leave me.
Yamaree:What are you talking about?
Me:He's gonna leave me for her Yamaree. I know it.

I locked my phone then looked out the window as they walked to the car. "Hey Asia.", I said looking at her as she got in the car.

"Hey Layla." I turned back around.

When Jermane got in the car I smelled perfume. It's not strong I just got a good nose.

...

I looked at Jermane as he drove. I don't wanna lose him but I can't make him stay. "Do you mind dropping me off at home? I'm starting to feel sick.", I said.

"Yeah I can drop you off.", he said quickly looking at me then back at the road. I looked out the window.

...

"Imma come over when I drop her off.", he said.

"Okay.", I said.

"I love you." No you don't.

"I love you too." We kissed then I looked at Asia. She's asleep so I didn't say bye I just got out of the car and walked to the house.

Tears ran down my face as I looked for my keys.

I don't wanna lose him.