Bait // Thiam

Chapter 33

I took a deep breath in, hoping it would calm my nerves. I decided to take Hayden's advice and meet up with, Theo. I haven't told him what it's for, because I don't even know what I'm going to tell him. I want to tell him how I feel, I just don't know how to tell him.

How do you tell someone you love them? I know it sounds easy, but it's not. Especially, when you don't know how to control your feelings. My whole life, I've kept to  myself. I never tell anyone how I'm actually feeling, so this is something new to me. I ran my hands through my hair, hearing something crack behind me.

I know it's probably just Theo, but I can never be to careful these days, that and Theo said he'd call when he was almost here. I got ready, just in case I did need to attack someone or something. I looked up growling, watching as someone approached me.

"Theo." I whispered, smiling and running up to him, embracing him in a hug. "You said you'd call." I looked at him, shaking my head.

"Forgot." He laughed, looking at the ground and rubbing the back of his neck.

I wanted to come right out and say it, but every time I thought about saying something, my mind just went blank. I opened my mouth slightly, getting ready to tell him everything, but all that came out with a sigh. I mentally slapped myself, getting agitated that I can do it. That I can't tell Theo how I feel.

"Anyways, you wanted to see me." He smiled, looking into my eyes, causing me to find hard to breath.

His eyes have always been my favourite thing about him. They're calming and you can get lost in them, no matter how many times you look into them. Just like right now, I'm lost in his dreamy, blue eyes.

I cleared my throat, snapping myself back into reality. I smiled, finding the courage to do, what I've been wanted to do. I looked back into his eyes, trying not to get lost in them.

"The night in the tunnels, the night you said you fell in love with me." I smiled, finally being able to find my voice.

"Yeah, can we just forget about that? I wasn't feeling myself." He nervously laughed, avoiding any sort of eye contact.

"No, I don't want to forget that night. That night when you said that, you never gave me a chance to say anything back. You kind of just left and I think that's what pissed me off the most." I started explaining, smiling when his eyes met mine. "You didn't let me explain how I felt, but I didn't know how I felt. Now, I know exactly how I feel."

I could feel my chest getting tighter, the closer I came to telling him how I felt. He looked down at me, his eyes misty. I slowly nodded, trying to find the courage I just had.

"Theo, I feel the same way. The first time I saw you, I hated you." I laughed, thinking back to the day he came to our school. "I thought you were a jerk, but then we began to talk. I got to know you and you were nothing like I thought you were. You helped me through so much, and I never knew this until tonight, but I also fell in love with you."

As the last couple of words left my mouth, I knew I had done it. Nothing could be taken back now, but I don't want anything to be taken back. I know how I feel and I'm not ashamed. I love Theo and I know he loves me back.

"When did you realise?" He asked me, looking into my eyes. "When did you realise you felt the same way?"

"Tonight. Hayden kind of helped me figure it out." I laughed, confused as to why she would help me out.

"Your girlfriend, helped you figure out that you're gay?" He asked me, confusion rushed across his face.

"Well, ex-girlfriend." I corrected him, smiling and walking over to him.

I smiled, grabbing the back of his head and pulling him down, pushing my lips onto his. I smiled into the kiss, trying to stop my heart from exploding. He pulled me closer into him, making sure we had no space in between us.

I pulled away, almost out of breath. I rested my forehead onto his and laughed. I looked down at lips and closed my eyes, shocked at what I just did. I told the guy that I loved, how I felt and then I kissed him.

"That's not how I expected this night to go." Theo whispered, slightly chuckling.

"Same." I whispered back, opening my eyes. "Now what?" I asked him, killing the mood.

"What do you mean?" He asked me, letting me go.

"I mean, now what? What are we and how are we going to do this? Are you going to come back to Beacon Hills?" I started bombarding him with question, annoying both him and I.

He looked up at me and shrugged his shoulders, being absolutely no help. He took a deep breath in, sitting down on the ground, looking out into the river. I decided to the same, as I was getting tired of standing.

"I don't know what we are. We can deal with this one of two ways. We keep it a secret, just between us or we go public. I'm fine with both." He smiled, but soon lost his smile. "As for coming back to beacon Hills... I don't think I can. Like, ever."

As I heard those last words, I felt my heart break into a million pieces. I thought that if I told him how I felt, that he would come back with me. That he would come back home.

I didn't really know what to say, so I just nodded. I guess in a way, I understand why he isn't coming back. I mean, why would he? Out here, he can do whatever he wants and doesn't have to worry about anything.

No hunters, no parents, nobody to annoy him, no school and the part, no teachers. If I didn't have a loving family, like I do, then I would probably live out here with him. Now that we are, whatever we are, I guess I will be spending more time out here with him.

"I'm sorry." He whispered, looking at me with a weak smile.

"I understand." I whispered back, moving closer to him and smiling.

We didn't say anything else after that. We just sat there and got lost in each others eyes, not caring about anything else going on around us.