At the start, the end. And in the middle.

Oh!Oh! I want some more!

"Being insane is what's keeping me, alive from my nightmares."

K.POV:

"Ahh!!" She woke up screaming.

"What is wrong? Bad dream?" I said.

She didn't give any attention like I had never existed.

She kept looking at her hands .. looking and looking. But she looks so much different. It's fear!

She turned her face to look at me while putting her hand covering her left eye. Our eyes met.

She looks so different I had never seen it before in any flower.

She looks just like mine.

The first time that I killed someone.

It's a killer look. I wonder what she dreams it.

She got up. Come near me.

"Killing again?" She said.

She looked at her.

"She is so young. The same age as mine just by looking to her. Will I one day be laying in her place waiting for my death?" She said.

She looks so pale and tired. She didn't sleep well these days I wonder what wrong with her.

"Hey! I have something to ask you?" She said.

"Yeah sure," I said.

"Can I stop from obey the rules just for a day and don't worry I will stay here and talk while you are cutting her?" She said.

I am a little surprised at what she is saying . But I want some more. I want to know her more and more I don't care if she breaks the rules.

I really really want some more.

"Okay! As you want my flower! Talk to me!" I said while smiling wanting to change her mood. But that didn't work well. The same look.

"First stop from calling me the flower. I have a name after all.

A name that someone named me." She said while walking around the garden.

It's the first time I saw her walking like a ... I don't know. Something wrong.

"It's okay you can talk to me M," I said.

"Do you know why people lie?" She asked me.

"Yeah of course because they want to hide the truth and fool others," I said.

She gave a look like she was going to kill me.

A scary one I think that. Then she turned her face.

Now she is touching the dead leaves, she held them.

Kept looking at them.

"No wrong! They want to hide the truth. It's just because people prefer to hear and believes lies then knowing the ugly truth. It's just not always the truth is beautiful. It's painful sometimes.

Anyway, in the end, you are just a tree paper. You going to fall and die alone. Just like these dead leaves.

Each one falls and died alone. No one cared about it.

Just like me." She said.

The meaning of the dead leaves is sadness.

'Is she sad because she is going to die alone?'

"Hey! I want to know .. what do you want from me? why you bring me here? what you want from me?" She asked me soundly. I was so surprised by her question I thought that she already know the answer.

In the end, I am going to kill her just like the others.

"Just to have fun and then kills you," I said that.

While my hands were shaking I didn't know the reason but I hide them.

"You are a bad liar after all. I don't believe you or that's what I am telling myself. I just keep lying to myself.

I just want to accept the truth that I am finally found someone going to end my life.

Do you know why people if you told them the truth they will accept as a lie and if you lied to them they just accepted the truth?

That's why we keep lying and they keep believing.

Just like me, I keep lying to myself even know the truth.

Even you don't have feelings you will feel the pain in the end." She said.

I can see how much she is sad.

it still only three months until the contract will end.

She only still has three months to live.

I want to know more about her... She is just like me.

Sad, alone, no one around to comfort you. She is falling and going to break. I can't do anything or that is another lie I am lying to myself just like her.

I just won't accept the truth that no one will accept my truth no one will give you his hand when you fall. They will just pass by you looking down to you.

That how we become more and more empty from inside.

Becoming heartless. it's just not our fault in the end.

But they made us believes that it's our fault that we born in this world and being raised in the darkness.

It's always the fault of the darkness .. our fault. no one stopped them no one. Even our families didn't accept our truth.

They just stopped there looking to us how bring broken watching us without helping us.

"It's not our fault!!" I said that out loud.

The other second I just realized that I throw the knife from my hand and went to her .. hugged her. If there is no one will comfort or help us we will do that to each other, in the end, we are from the same darkness.

I can feel her heart beats ..

I can hear her cry now..

She just needs someone, in the end, to comfort her and told her that it's not her fault that she born in this world.

I just let her when she calms down.

I went to cut a flower and gave it to her.

"Tulip Variegated?" She said.

"Yes! Your eyes so beautiful!" I said that and gave her a smile.

Yeah, your eyes are beautiful. Don't forget that the starts only shine in the darkness.

If there weren't darkness stars never exist to show how they are shining just like her eyes.

"Your eyes like a Galaxy full of sad stars."

It's not our fault.

I want some more in the end.

I can't stop.