𝙄𝙢𝙖𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙖𝙧𝙮 𝙁𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙨 [GOT7]

Stop

chaeyoung
"So f*cking much." I stated, though you weren't there.

Of course you weren't.

You're never there.

That's all you knew how to do.

Leave me.

Leave me to be miserable.

Leave me to be alone.

I hate being alone.

I only wanted to be with you Jae.

"I don't wanna do this anymore Yugyeom." I spoke to the still bewildered boy.

My lip started quivering again as I remembered you.

You and your otter smile that always brightened my days.

And your beautiful voice that always blessed my nights.

You really were my everything.

And now you're gone.

I grabbed the boy's arm slowly and hugged it to my side.

"I don't want to be alone anymore."

He just stayed there, wrapping his pale fingers around mine that were clutching his arm.

"You won't be alone Chaeyoung," he started after a while.

He gave my hand a small squeeze.

"I'll be here for you." he announced.

Sitting in his embrace brought back memories.

Memories of you and how we used to sit together.

Laughing and crying.

Enjoying our so called lives.

"Do you... do you think he could ever.. come back?" I asked, praying that there was still hope.

Though I knew what the true answer was.

He sighed.

"No, Chaeyoung." he said. "He won't."

It stung but I knew it was coming.

And I could feel you in him.

And I knew this was what you wanted.

I knew this was why you'd wanted me to hang around him.

So that you could say goodbye.

I laughed slightly to myself, thinking of how clever you were.

You were the smart one after all.

And though I knew it was going to be hard,

I also knew that you always knew best.

Tears rolled down my face as I silently cried, Yugyeom's encompassing hand rubbing patterns on my own.

I love you Jae.

And I don't want this.

But I'll do it for you.