Forbidden Love! {✔️}

Goodbye.

My eyes stared at yours in a manner they hadn't dared before. Your eyes which resembled the dark nights we stayed awake late, texting. Made me realise how long it had been. 

How long it had been since I used your slang in my texting, how long it had been since my heart craved your name popping up my notification tab and exactly how long it had been since my lips curved into a smile, my eyes lit up like stars and my cheek flushed with love. For you. 

To your face I can deny and say that I don't know how long it has been. But in my mind I knew exactly how long it had been and I could state the days in figures, the hours in numbers and the seconds in data sheets. 

What a total obsessive freak I was. But you loved me for exactly that. 'The freak' who would notice the small details in plain green grass, the small detail in how your Afro-hair curled slightly after using a new brush or the detail in how your eyes grinned when you caught me staring at you. 

You had these goddamn black orbs that would captivate my mind. You were in control of the only weapon I was capable of using. You were in control of my mind. And I didn't even know, until we decided it was time for goodbyes. 

My heart stilled at the thought of goodbyes, and my preoccupied mind tuned back in with reality. There he was. Staring. Looking into my soul, through my eyes.

We never did formally say goodbye... 

The wind blew past us to make us aware of its presence, yet we didn't even notice as we were only intrigued in each other. My mind craved communication to flow between us just like it had done in the past. My body ached at the close proximity, but unfamiliar heat and my heart strings contracted as they were in a tug of war: fighting against whether to let him back in or let him go!

Slowly my eyes moved from his eyes, breaking the intense stare down and closing off the connection between both our mind and soul. My eyes wandered around his face in search of any hints or clues that may indicate as to what he wanted. For a millisecond my eyes rested at his light puffy pink lips before they fell to the ground and my cheeks flustered pink. 

It was beyond me how my eyes had minds of their own. I mean with any other guy, they would lower their gazes and control me from glancing. But somehow even my eyes treated him 'differently', unable to look away; exhilarated at each moment they were able to look. How cruel of them to abandon me in the state I was and shamelessly take in his eyes, face and lips. How hypocritical. 

'Stupid eyes..' I mumbled under breath.

'excuse me..' He replied leaning closer to hear me.

Oh Allah have mercy I pleaded within my mind. My body radiated heat to such a great extent, I was sure I could light up the lights within this street for a good hour. The intensity of his closeness was too much and i was left speechless.

'Elaf.. speechless?..'

 'Hm.... That doesn't add up with the Elaf i know' He said jokingly.

My name leaving his lips left a trail of happiness in my ears which travelled all the way to my heart. You see along with being the nice girl, comes the perks of being a talkative member in each and every situation. Handling it with sarcasm carved fresh from the mind. 

My eyes rose up from staring at the red checked stones in the pavement at his statement. Raising one of my eyebrows I said,

'Actually I was just having a go at my eyes for shamelessly staring at you.. E-m-m-a-n-u-e-l.' I made sure to spell out his name confidently.

His name. Lord only knows I haven't allowed my lips to utter them anywhere.

Funny enough I just did so with confidence. 

Sometimes even I surprised myself. 

'Aha.. so my Elaf is still present I see' He said.

'My Elaf'. I detected a hidden grin and sucked in my cheeks to stop my giggles from erupting.  

'Elaf... by now you should know that your eyes are attracted to my handsomeness and nothing you say or do will change that.' He said with a pride grin etched onto his lips.

'And to clarify Mr. Confident, so are your eyes.' I replied back with a smirk.

I saw his lips form an O shape and took this chance to finish off what he started.

'Oh and close your lips before you get flies swarming in with force.' Winking, I stepped around him and started walking off. 

Just before I was able to let my mind freely replay what the chocolates just happened, I felt a pair of strong hands grab my backpack. Ignoring the weight I attempted to walk away. But to add on to the luck I was having today I wasn't able to move.

'Did you really think I would let Miss. Sarcastic walk off after destroying my ego?' He said in his calm voice laced with a cheeky grin.

In that moment all I wanted to do was turn to him and reply with something sarcastic that would make him laugh. I wanted it to be just like the old times, but now more than ever I wanted him to be someone who I would be able to bring home. I wanted him to be someone who had my faith.

I still remember how our attraction grew between us.

It was because we found similarities within our faiths which we would spend hours discussing, but I think we both knew that we could never be accepted in both our families nor could we truly accept each other. And even if we did get along now, sooner or later our faith differences would clash and result to resentment, arguments and destruction. Things I would rather never see coming from him.

Slowly I turned around and said in the most monotonous voice I could master,

' Emmanuel.. let me go. Let me walk away now whilst I have good memories of you. We both know why this can never go on. You have taken over my heart and staying close to you would do nothing but hurt us both. If we want to be together one of us has to give up. Either you or me would have to give up on our faith; I don't think we could. We are both strong in our individual faiths and find peace and comfort in our religion. That's why letting go of each other would do less damage than letting go of our believing hearts.'

I watched his dark orbs become hallow and his face in pain. Oh if only things were different we could've been together.

So many 'ifs'. 

I once again turned around and continued towards home with the wind as a companion. I prayed to my Lord for strength to keep going and not to break.

'I will never forget you Elaf...'

'... Goodbye'

The words were shouted gently, but the silence around us ensured that my ears absorbed each letter. My body shivered at them as each letter sliced through my heart.

He really was letting go this time. Without turning around I gently walked home. 

I had managed to survive without him for exactly: 25 days 15 minutes and 35 seconds. And all it took was a 50 second stare down, 1 minute of sarcasm and a goodbye to question myself if I could manage to survive without him any longer. 

THE END!

A/N: 

I am unsure as to how this has turned out But IT IS A WRAPPPP (This time I dedicate this time to shout out wrapping paper XD) 

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