Stay High (Harry Styles Fanfic, possibly british 2)

Everyones a little screwy

•Ella's pov•

I spun around quickly to chew out whoever was behind me. no one can touch me in that way or talk to me that way and expect me to just take it. I don't give a single f-ck if it's allowed here or not.

"Oh my god" I choked on my words

Louis Tomlinson was the man who just violated me. oh my god. So I'm assuming 1D is spread all over the continent now. I guess none of them went back to the uk. at least louis and zayn didn't.

"Ella Carter? well I'll be dam-ed. your the last person I would've expected to see here." his laugh was raspy and deeper than it was only 3 years ago. this isn't the boy I once knew, he changed for the worse. so did I though, I can't judge, at least I have a reason.

"What happened to you."

"Uhh Eleanor broke up with me so I got involved in all sorts of sh-t." Louis hiccuped, the alcohol on his breath was so strong I nearly gagged

He ovbiously has no idea what he is saying. If he were sober he would not have told me all that. I wonder if the band is still together.

"You know harry isn't the same without you. anddddddddd if you were wonderrring the band. broke. up."

A pain I hadn't felt in over a year shot through my body and I felt as if I were about to pass out.

"Uh sir I think it's time you go home, go upstairs and ask for a driver." Arisa shooed Lou upstairs and helped me to a chair

"Want to talk about it." she said softly

"Not really. not tonight at least, do you have a cigarette. gah I need a cigarette." I sighed and slumped over in my chair.

"Yeah, here." she handed me a cigarette and a liter "you can smoke over there in the 'smoking corner'."

I tried my best to calm down as I sat in the 'smoking corner' by an extremely large rich woman who smelled of piss. Fear and anxiety raced through my body like a raging river. if louis tells harry I'm here I'll have to confront him. Of course he won't want me back, not since I've become this way. If he does come here he won't be able to recognize me.

What if he wants me back? what if he still loves me? he couldn't. no one truly loves me. I won't say love doesn't exist because it does. love is the reason im so f-cked up. I loved him enough to leave him. so he could keep his career. he had such an amazing thing going for him, I didn't want to ruin his band. If the band broke up I wander why zayn and Lana never told me.....

I was snapped from my thoughts when Arisa tapped my shoulder.

"C'mon love, back to work." she smiled

I tried to smile back but I didn't. I failed miserably. That's something I can't do anymore ,fake happiness, it's easier to hurt than to be happy.

I returned to my position behind the bar and grabbed a towel to wipe up a spilled margarita.

"So you hear about lap dance night yet?" Arisa half laughed while scrubbing at a brown substance on the front counter.

"Yes. mackenfargle mentioned it, I didn't know if it was a real thing or not." I shivered at the thought of having to lap dance him

"Oh it's a real thing. we have it once a month and you can wear whatever you want even though tomorrow's a wednesday. normally you would wear your uniform but since it's a special day we get an extra choose your own adventure. you know how to give a proper lapdace?" Arisa raised an eyebrow

"Can't say I do."

"Come here." she pulled out a chair "mind if I give an example?" I shook my head and sat down

"Now before I do this you need to know I'm straight as a line." She giggled

I nodded and she positioned herself to give me 'the time of my life'

She moved up and down and all around. she did some sort of ticking, and some twerk thing, I must admit she's quite good.

Arisa pulled a chair for me and she she stood opposite from me to show me some step by step moves.

We got a few whistles, and mid lap dance learning session Arisa was pulled to the floor by a boy about our age. they danced a few songs and I was required to tend the bar alone for a while. I didn't mind it, some of the people here aren't bad at all. then again sometimes people who a richer than bill gates will come in and treat you like a b-tch dog.

As 3am approached the crowd began to leave and Arisa and I were called to mackenfargles office.

"Ladies!" he chirped throwing his arms up "we had another successful night down under, I hope." I nodded slowly hoping he would just get to the point.
"Remember tomorrow is LDN. have a good one."

"That was absolutely pointless." I chuckled

"Yeah most of his meetings are. would you mind giving me a ride home, I don't live far from here but I'm not comfortable with walking at 3 in the morning? it's fine if you don't want to though, you don't even know me yet."

"Of course" I offered her a genuine smile

I cranked my car and the AC automatically came on. f-ck.

"Woo baby. someone's been smokin some weed in here." Arisa coughed and sputtered

"Ok so you ovbiously have a problem with smoking and your missing a guy named harry who was in a band that broke up." well she's a little nosy

"I already said I don't want to talk about it." there goes my mood again

"Talking helps sometimes, I don't want to push you but I get the feeling that deep down you want to talk and get something off your chest"

I guess she could be right, it's not like I care what she thinks anyway and I do need a friend so... Every now in the the old Ella, born and raised with southern hospitality and Jesus, would show through.

"Well I had this boyfriend, his name was Harry, Harry Styles. you know the teen heart throb from the famous One Direction. we dated for one whole school year then his bands managment said I couldn't be with him anymore because i wasn't famous or some sh-t. I was so in love with him Arisa. I left him because I knew how much the band meant to him, I didn't want to be the reason his career ended. Harry even asked me to marry him to keep us together but I knew inside that leaving him was for the best. now I've dropped out of college for the moment. I smoke weed like there's no tomorrow. In The beginning I did it to forget about Harry. now I want to stop but I can't, my best friend told me just last week she couldn't handle me anymore and that she won't talk to me again until I straighten out my life. so here I am." I sighed.

I do actually feel a little bit better. maybe all I need is someone to talk to, I need a constant in my life, maybe Arisa will stick around for a while.

"Sounds like you've had a rough few years babe. I'm just gonna tell you now, dropping out of school will only make your situation worse. if you want my opinion I think you should talk to harry, maybe if you don't get back together you can't at least get some closure and then with closure you can try to get off of whatever drugs your on. And then from there you can get back in school and get your friend back." she smiled warmly and signaled for me to turn here at the next left

"Would you help me? I'm just so messed up. I know if kind of a lot to ask a girl I just met but I don't have anyone right now and I know I can't do this on my own." I laughed at the fact that I just asked someone for help, this is new.

"You don't have to. Every one is a little screwed up in there own way. I'll be here any time of day or night. Here I'll put my number in your phone and you can text me sometime." I nodded and she took my phone to add her contact and number

I pulled into her drive way and she thanked me before hopping out and running inside.

For my first night on the job i'd say I did okay.

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