Stay High (Harry Styles Fanfic, possibly british 2)

Too sick to function

•Ella's pov•

"H-how do you know that..." My breathing increased along with my heart rate

"What?" Harry smirked "how do I know you f-cked all those guys? well that's for me to know and you to, not find out."

I don't get why he's acting like this. it's like he's bi polar or something. I've been with him about an hour and his mood has already switched 5 times.

"Right now that's beside the point. The only reason I'm here is to apologize, I know nothing about what you've been through the past few years but I want you to know I've been through hell. normally I would say I've been to hell and back but I haven't gotten out of it yet. I thought when I left you I was helping you, I knew it would hurt me but I never knew it would do this much damage. Lana hates me, my parents disowned me, and I'm basically a drug head and alcoholic now. I've got one 'friend', I've only known her for 2 days but she said I needed closure from you to be able to move on in my life. I'm not really sure what that means. I think it means I need to know if you still love me or if your fine with not being together. I honestly don't think ill ever be in another relationship but I'm not sure of what will happen once I get my life back on track." the words just kept flowing out of my mouth without me even trying.

"Wait! are you seriously asking me, the first Time you've seen me in 3 years, if I'll go out with you again?" Harry spat

"No I--"

He cut me off yet again "sweetheart you have no idea how much I've been through because you left me. although I do feel as if I came out of it rather well, you know with minimal scarring. All that's left of my bipolar depression, cutting, and insomnia is the bipolarity and they have medicine for that." Well that explains his mood changes

"So your saying you don't love me anymore. not even the smallest bit?"

"Ella I don't even know you anymore. Your surely not the same as you used to be. your life has been pretty sh-tty for the past few years. however, no, I have not stopped loving you since the day you left me. So that's why I was wanting us to maybe catch up, not that there Is anything I don't already know about you." the smirk re-appeared on Harry's face but his time it was somewhat playful

I walked to his recliner chair and took a seat, it's already getting late and I'm exhausted from today's events.

Harry slowly sat himself upright on the couch. he looked slightly tipsy, who knows how many beers he's had tonight already.

"So you start Harry. what's been going on with you since, you know when." I picked up a pillow and hugged my knees to my chest

"It's really not fair for you to make me go first buttttt. Okay so when you left the band moved back to the UK and we had 3 more albums released. I was barly getting on at all. At most of our shows I lip synced because I was so 'sick' I couldn't function. The band actually broke up the year management originally intended it to, although we wanted a few more years together and management was going to allow it. then my bipolar depression kicked in. the fans were great and super supportive, even kind when I would accidentally flip my sh-t on them. But management did what they do best and they called it quits. So I brought my life savings here to LA where I can live comfortably without ever having to work again if I spend my money correctly."

Oops he left out the part

where he stalked me, but that's another story for another day I guess

" your turn " he blatantly stated

"Ok so I moved to florida, failed all my classes, became a prostitute-drugaddict-alcoholic, and then moved here to where I am currently living and working. I have no friends anymore, and my family basically disowned me. Id say life's going pretty well. I already told you all of this earlier." I chuckled sarcastically

"Woah you didn't go into any sort of detail like I did."

"I didn't need too, seeing as you basically stalked me, how else would you have known I had sex with all those guys. If you wouldn't mind I would like to go back home now. Your a bipolar psycho and I have no desire to talk to you because your mood swings are exhausting. i came here to see if you still loved me and it's quite clear you don't. You can say you never stopped loving me all you want, but I don't see any love here."I rubbed my temples as I breathed in sharply.

"This isn't going how I intended it. when Lou told me you were in town I didn't believe him, I thought he was playing with my emotions. like I said earlier you have only gotten prettier and to be perfectly honest I would like to try and re kindle our relationship. I might have mood swings but the kind things I say aren't only said because my mood changed." he has got to be kidding me

"Dude!" I shouted " we haven't talked in 3 years! We've both made this point many times. I came here to see if you still loved me, you basically said you didn't earlier. but just now you said you wanted a relationship again. I don't get it. I'm not going to go out with you by you just asking me out tonight, your going to have to do what every other guy on the planet does to get the girl they want. I clearly made a mistake coming here, so now if you don't take me home I will call the police and tell then you kidnapped me." I stood up and strutted to the door, Harry soon followed

He took me home without saying a word. What I

said may have sounded harsh but it's true. I doubt I approached that situation right, I should've asked Arisa what to say to him. it's not that I don't want to be with him again,it's just I don't know him. He's not the same as he used to be and since our relationship ended the way it did I don't think we were meant to be in the first place.

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Guys I swear I wrote this chapter last monday. I just suck at updating, I'm sorry I'm so dumb.

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