Don't Chase Me

15: Killer Sadness

Chapter 15: Killer Sadness

Mitch’s P.O.V

I woke up from my sleep with sweat dripping from my forehead. Something was wrong, very wrong. I jumped out of bed and through on a pair of jeans.

I felt the pull to somewhere. I knew I needed to get there. I ran out of my room and down the pack house. Everyone was a sleep and I didn’t blame them, I saw a flash of the clock and it was around 2 in the morning.

I got out of the house and I felt my wolf pushing trying to get out. I tried to hold him in but he broke free and landed on four feet running as fast as I could.

I reached the school in minutes but kept going to the forest. I ran deep inside until I caught the scent.

Chrystal.

I ran faster and harder… then I saw her. I was facing her back and she was pressed up against another boy. He had his face deep into her neck.

Jealousy instantly took over me and I wanted to rip him to shreds. But I needed to calm down, she can move on. She should move on.

Then I saw it, the trickle of red that went over her shoulder and then was soaked by her shirt leaving a little red dot.

I instantly launched out of the forest but stopped. What was he doing?

He laid her down gently and kissed her forehead. He looked up and we lock eyes.

It was her brother Nathan, the vampire.

He took off and I ran after him deeper into the forest. But I was being ripped apart, I wanted to desperately go to my mate but I wanted to kill Nathan for what he did to her.

I ended up going back to my mate. I stayed in wolf form and laid beside her with my head laying on her stomach. It wasn’t moving, she wasn’t breathing, she was dead.

I heard people coming but I didn’t care. I felt hollow, I felt like a piece of my soul was taken away. I can’t believe that she’s actually gone.

I heard a gunshot and I lifted my head to see a man with a shot gun trying to aim at me but he had terrible aim and his hands were shaking.

I decided it wasn’t safe here anymore so I took off into the forest. I ran back to the pack house and went inside. I didn’t bother changing back until I got to my room. I shut the door, slid on a pair of shorts and sat on my bed.

I buried my head in my hands as I silently wept. Betas weren’t supposed to cry, they weren’t supposed to show weakness. But I just couldn’t hold it together.

There was a light knock at my door. I didn’t say anything in fear that my voice would crack.

The door opened any way and shut as the person came into the room. I recognised the scent well and wish he would just leave.

“Dude, why did you go for a run this late?” my younger brother Nick said.

I didn’t bother to answer him. I just kept my face in my hands as I felt them start to soak with my weak tears.

I knew humans were weak, so easily to kill. I pushed her away because I didn’t want this fate for her. I wanted my pack to be able to look up to their beta female. How could they look up to her if she was a mere human?

Now she’s gone forever.

“Dude what’s wrong with you?” Nick asked as he sat on my bed.

I just shook my head. I couldn’t speak, all my words were caught in my throat.

“Dude, what’s wro-” he stopped when I looked up. My face was probably wet with tears and my eyes were probably red and puffy “I’ll be right back” he said before leaving the room.

A few minutes later my father entered the room looking sleepy. He sat beside me on the bed as tears were still falling down my cheeks.

“What’s the matter son?” he asked.

“She’s… she’s… dead” I got out and a sob erupted from my throat.

“Chrystal?” he asked.

God, just hearing her name brings another wave of sadness. I nodded to answer his question.

He got up “you probably want to be alone” he said before leaving my room and shutting the door behind him.

I curled up on my bed and silently wept at the loss of my mate that I didn’t want.

***

I got out of bed and my muscle’s ached. I ignored it and jumped into the shower. I got out and dressed in the same outfit that I wore to Gareth’s funeral; black dress pants, a white button up shirt and black tie.

I walked out of my room, the first time I’ve done it in about a week. I just wanted to stay in my room and hide, hide from the world and humanity.

As I walked through the pack house only few were dressed in black because only few were going to the funeral. Only few actually noticed my mate, she kept to very few people.

I walked from the house and found my younger brother Nick. He was just a few inches shorter than me, he had dark hair and dark green eyes. We were only a year apart so he was 16.

I looked at my father and felt totally sympathy for him. He had gone through this before. Nick and I’s mother died when I was three and Nick was two. I felt bad because he had to still take care of us and I just locked myself in my room.

I got into the back of the car as Mick and my father got into the front. I stared out the window as everything blurred by.

We came to a rolling stop in the exact place were Gareth’s funeral was. I got out of the car and saw a lot of people in black.

I walked slowly over to where people were gathering. I looked down at her coffin. She was inside there… she was never coming out.

I noticed that they decided to bury her beside Gareth. That was a sweet thought. I hope that when I die I’ll get to be on her other side.

As the preacher started talking I wandered away. I found myself sitting down in the same spot she sat in at Gareth’s funeral.

I watched it all un-ravel as people started braking down. I understand why she sat here, you are part of the ceremony but you also are able to hold onto a shred to keep yourself together from here.

I don’t know how I’m going to live without her…