Here I am today. Does anyone still use this? I sure as hell don't...well except for right now. This is the last thing I will ever write on here, but this is not the last thing I will ever write. Today I'm older, I'm still learning, I'm accepting life, I'm happier, I'm here, I'm breathing. I am still the same person who wrote those chapters 3 years ago...but I got through that. I am now a person who realized that life is not perfect-life is hell. But it's what you make out of it. You're allowed to have your bad days, even if those bad days go onto be bad weeks. That's okay, everyone has those, to necessarily always in the same way but the same idea. I came here to write that it took time. A whole long time. I can't say I'm 100% happy and my life is pure bliss, but I can say I did get better. I did grow and I still am. I'm here to tell my past self you will be sad, you can't get rid of that feeling but you can realize those sad days make the good days seem even better. I'm here to tell my past self you are loved and you can love. I'm here to tell my past self you and your mom will become close as ever in the future. I'm here to tell my past self you will lose friends...many in fact, but you will find new ones, you will learn more about yourself as soon as you explore and expand. I'm here to tell my past self those negative comments mean nothing to you now and they should have never meant anything. I'm her to tell myself in the past, you are gonna get better, you are going to be happy, you are going to learn to love yourself and others. You are here. I said "I hope I'll be happier tomorrow" and I sure as fuck am.. maybe not in one day, but overtime. Everything takes time. Life takes time.
