Lost Entries

A Note To Self On His Death

I know you miss him

But this cant be an excuse anymore

I can't do this

I miss him

I can't take a chance 

I miss him 

I can't move on 

I miss him

It's been five years 

Still you're shedding tears

He's gone and there's no coming back

You saw it

The monitor

The last movement

The in and out of air as the air was knocked out of you

The painful goodbyes and teary eyed heartbreaks

The explanation

He's brain dead

He would want this

He wouldn't want this

Your aunt on the floor

Not my father

He's alive

He grabbed my hand

You saw it

You're going to kill him

But there was nothing to be done

This goodbye was final

We lost

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