Killer Love (ON HOLD)

Talk To Me

Recap:

As I got into the passenger side and he cranked up the car I asked "what was all of that about? Why were you fighting?" The next thing out of his mouth truly came to shock me, "You"

Scars POV:

I didn't know how to react to the words that had come out of his mouth. "What do you mean you were talking about me?" I questioned as I waited for what felt like forever for him to reply, "He doesn't want me to pair with someone because he is afraid that if you become big with modeling it could ruin my career and lose me money which would, in turn, lose him money which I think is all he actually cares about here." I could hear the annoyance coming from his voice. By this time Kyle had pulled over to the side of the road trying to calm himself down, I could tell the slight argument with Damian really got to him which made me think it was about more than just me. 

I felt bad knowing that Damian was the one who had hired me to kill Kyle and that the reason he didn't want me to get involved was so that when Kyle was killed Damian would collect the earnings/recognition instead of me. If I got to close to the scene and knew what happened I could ruin Damian, little did he know I already knew. The thought of knowing the truth and not even being able to tell Kyle made me feel as though I was setting him up for it. At this moment I knew I wouldn't be able to finish the job because there was no way in hell I could kill Kyle. While these thoughts are running through my head I looked up to find that he was staring directly back into my eyes. The moment was tense and serious and I could tell the seriousness was about more than just Damian.

"Are we going to talk about what happened last night?" I asked almost hoping he would say no so that I didn't have to endure the awkward conversation that was bound to happen. "Why do we have to talk about it?" he replied back while his face leaned in even closer than before now, close enough that I could practically feel his lips on top of my own. I started to open my mouth again to talk but the words couldn't seem to come out. My mind knew what I wanted to say but my body could only react to one thing right now and that just so happened to be the gorgeous man sitting in front of me. As if we were two magnets being pulled together by some higher power there was no way of stopping our lips the second they connected.

It felt wrong to be kissing him and be feeling this way about him when I know that in reality, my reality, the job is wanting me to be doing the opposite. This moment occurring in this car has made me realize it wasn't the fact of me not knowing who wanted him dead that was stopping me from being able to kill Kyle, It was the fact that this job wasn't meant for me. No matter how much training I did there was no way I could kill someone like Kyle who in no way deserved what Damian wanted me to do to him. I just couldn't tell Johnny that.

As our lips continued to move in sync with each other my hands began to wander over his upper body feeling just how strong he was, he pulled away long enough for me to see the small smirk that came to his face when he felt my hands roaming over his body. But I had to stop myself, pulling away I looked at him with all seriousness. "Kyle I cannot do this, I can't ruin your career," I knew in my mind this had nothing to do with his career but in turn my own. I leaned my head against his shoulder feeling his physical response to the words coming out of my mouth.

"Hey," he replied softly "You aren't going to ruin my career, having someone like you would actually probably boost my recognition if anything. I've known for a while now that Damian is over controlling of my business and of my life, but he just does it for the money. Unlike him I'm not in it for the money, I'm in it to do the job and make a difference,"

We sat in this position for a while in silence. All the words that came to my mind to say to him just didn't sound like the thing I needed to say. A few minutes after the silence began Kyle decided it was probably smart if we went ahead and drove back to the apartment. When we arrived there I was so tired from the emotions that all I wanted was a hot bath, "Hey Kyle I'll be back I'm gonna go clean up," I said while slipping into the guest room he so graciously was letting me sleep in.

Just as I was taking my clothes off to get into the bath I heard my phone start ringing. As I picked it up the caller ID was showing me that Johnny was calling, "Hey Johnny, whats kicking?" I asked hopefully sounding perky enough with the emotional state I was currently in. I knew I was going to have to admit to Johnny that I couldn't do the job, I just didn't know how to. 

"I should be asking you that question I think, I didn't know you took this job of mine so that you could run off and become a model," He replied back quickly while his response was laced with bitterness as if I had betrayed him. "What do you mean?" I asked confused as to how he even knew,

"Well kiddo, Damian just gave us a call back asking if we could add a new up and coming model named Scar to his hit list.."

Shit.

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Ohh what is she going to do now?

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