After the talk with my mother I was feeling a lot better she knew me inside and out, she was the reason I found strength in this messed up world. I decided to do some research and I found out that the health centre had clubs for people who had depression . I had depression when I was thirteen around about the time I found out about my father and Elisabeth and somehow I could feel the dark and aching feeling that started at the heart and moved to the brain ,it was as if all your demons were clawing to surface and once you hit rock bottom it is damn miracle if you return .
"Come on mom, you have been working a lot lately this could help us "I said following my mother back into the kitchen.
" Don't worry about me Moana I can handle the work."
I've been feeling really bad that she know had to work for extra hours now that I had to visit the doctor more frequently and need a whole lot of medication , which costs a shit loud of money by the way.
"Mom they offer medical aid , so if I sign up for the club by next week I can qualify for it and it will be a really big weight lifted off of your shoulders"
"I don't know Moana , are you sure your depression is coming back?"
"Yes mom its aching feeling that I can't miss. I can feel it coming back daily. Its something that you can't miss and if I don't act on it soon I might do irrational things , like the last time" I looks down because the thought of my depression makes me cringe and based on my mothers expression it has the same effect on her.
My mother starts pacing back and forth and I know she is fighting with herself in her brain.
"Fine, you can go but if I don't see improvement you leave the club." She pulls me into a hug.
"I love you mom all of this will cone to an end and we will be happy again ." I say feeling a tear fall down my cheek.
"I love you too honey , always have always will ."
"Forever"
"Forever"
***
As I make my way out of the I pull my beanie over my head as I see the clouds form above my head. I swear I envy the girls who can walk through the rain and have their hair looking even better than before.
I was on my way to the health centre and I swear my heart was pounding in my chest . I mean what if someone from school recognised me ,they would know that something was wrong and I would be the reject of my group - the popular. I know that none of them are my actual friend but they make me feel wanted , accepted and everything but rejected.
***
As I walk in I make my way to the reception.
"Good day. You need any help."
"Uhhh ,yes please I was wondering where the club for depression is " I whisper so no one could hear me .
"Door 5. Do you want to sign in ."
"No, not yet I'm just checking it out."
"Okay" she said looking confused.
***
"Hi my name is Shelly ,and I suffer from depression."an old lady wearing a cat shirt said.
"Hi Shelly" everyone said in unison .
I sat there bored out of my mind ,while Shelly spoke about how she over came her depression which started when she lost two husbands in one year and decided to spend her days at animal centre to take care of lost cats and dogs.
She realised that all her love was meant to go to her twelve cats.
I know right!
As I got up to sneak my way our of the door , I saw the gates of heaven open as the most handsome specimen walked through the door.
Okay maybe I'm laying it on a little thick with the whole
'doors of heaven' thing but damn if you saw this guy you'd understand.
He is tall , toned skin like someone who spends his days in the sun, yes his tan is so natural it should be illegal. He had on a hoodie so I couldn't really see his hair but I could see a few disobedient brown locks fall from his cap. Our eyes immediately locked and its like this guy put some time of spell on me because I was was mesmerised and couldn't tear away from the gaze that he gave me and god almighty did he have the most captivating eyes. It was blue like the ocean and it made me gasp for air , as if I was drowning in them. As he looked at me his clenched jaw softened and formed into a cocky smirk and it made me knees buckle.
Okay there goes my ability to walk , I'm completely immobile and paralysed as his intense stair made me weak as he strode toward me as if he was walking on clouds.
As he sat down next to me , I start to fiddle with my finger nervously .
" Haven't seen you around here yet , you new to the art if depression? "He whispered into my ear and I could feel the goose bumps forming on the side of my neck as his hot breath fans my neck.
"Can we make babies now" are the words that escape my mouth and as soon as it does I feel my cheeks heat up. Why the hell did I say that. Okay can I die now please?
He smirks to himself and I can't take my eyes from him as I feel myself nearly drool at the sight of his chiseled jaw line.
"Damn your fast baby , I was thinking of taking you to dinner first but seeing as you are already so turned on... We might as well "he says and traces a few fingers over my knee, making me shiver in response.
He gets up to get a glass of water , and I have a light bulb moment. I'm going to make a run for it.
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Подростковая литератураTwo lovers , who have known each other since birth but are separated at a very young age. Seth and Moana are both in very tough places in their lives, when they finally meet one another by complete accident. They don't know each other but they are i...
