Kinky Boots

Hold Me in Your Heart

"Ugh, I gotta go to work," I sighed. We were tangled up in his bed—both of us were attempting to stay away after our post-sex daze.
"No, five more minutes," Phil begged. His arm was wrapped around my naked torso, trying to keep me from leaving.
"Phil, you said that five minute ago," I giggled.
"Please..."
"Fine... but then I really have to go."

***

"Hey there, sexy," Alex smirked.
"Hey," I grinned. I wrapped my arms around his neck as his arms went around my waist. I gave him a quick kiss and continued smiling. "So what brings you here?"
"I missed you. Why?"
"No reason."
"Just cause I got fired doesn't mean I have to stop visiting you."
"I know, I know," I chuckled. "Okay, I have to get back to work. Take a seat wherever."
"Sounds good, baby."

He pecked my cheek before I headed to the bar to serve some people their drinks. As I was passing everything out, I felt someone grab onto my waist. Thinking it was Alex, I spun around and placed a kiss on his lips. I fluttered my eyes open, realizing that it was Phil.

My eyes nearly popped out of my head as I started backing away from him. I moved around a few chairs trying to get away from him—he just followed me. He backed me into a wall and raised a brow.

"Why are you running from me?" he asked.
"Alex is sitting at the bar," I hissed.
"So? You two aren't together anymore." I looked down as my face started heating up. "Right, Dan?"
"Hmm?"
"You and Alex aren't together anymore, right?" I nodded. "No, I want to hear you say it."
"We're not together anymore," I lied.
"Okay... then why are you being so skittish?"
"Because he's the jealous type. I don't want him hurting you."
"I can hold my own, babe. You know that."
"Yeah, I guess," I sighed. "Now, I have to work." I started walking away before his arm found its way around my waist. I let out a whimper and faced him.
"I don't get a kiss before you leave."

I rolled my eyes and quickly kissed him before hurrying away. I threw the empty tray behind the bar and poured myself a shot. I downed it before taking another. I shook my head and walked over to Alex.

Without my consent, he scooped me up onto his lap. I glanced around and didn't see Phil anywhere—he must've run to the toilets. I gave up internally and rested my head against Alex's chest. Dating two guys is too damn hard.

"You alright?"
"Tired," I pouted.
"I'm sorry, baby," I heard someone say.

Then, I was shoved off of Alex's lap and fell to the floor with a huff. I moved my bush of a wig out of my face and saw my boyfriends fucking fighting each other. The two were tumbling on the floor, throwing punches whenever they could.

"Stop it! Stop it!" I yelled. I pulled them apart and fell to the floor again. "Goddamnit," I groaned.

Phil and Alex each grabbed an arm and helped me up to my feet. I tore my arms away from their grip and pushed my hair back.

"Explain yourself..." Phil grit his teeth.
"You fucking two-timing whore," Alex spat, "I thought you were done with this asshole."
"I'm the asshole?" Phil scoffed. "I'm not the one that gave him that hideous scar on his leg!"
"And how would you know what the scar looks like now?"
"Oh, cause I fuck his goddamn brains out every other day."
"Yeah, right." Alex rolled his eyes.

Phil aggressively grabbed my waist and forced me into a kiss. I pulled away, but Phil just started kissing down my neck.

"Phil, please," I cried. I tried pushing him away, but he held me still. "Phil, knock it off..." I sobbed. "You've made your point!" I stomped on his foot and he jumped back with a yelp.
"Dan, is it true?" Alex asked. I dried my eyes and nodded.
"I am so–"
"Yeah..." A tear dripped his face. "You always are..."
"I love you..."
"And what about me?" Phil asked.
"I love you too..."
"Well, which one of us do you choose?" Alex whispered.
"What?"
"You can't pick us both, Dan."
"He's right..." Phil added. "So, which one of us is it?"
"I... I... I–"
"This can't be a fucking hard decision," Alex sneered.
"You hurt him!" Phil yelled.
"And you just tried to molest him!" Alex retorted. "Which one is it, Dan?"
"Yeah, Dan. Which one?"
"Neither..." I choked out.
"What?" They gasped.
"I-I choose neither of you..."
"Why not?"
"I just... this has been too much... all of this... I think I should just be alone for a little while..."
"Can we still visit you?" Alex asked.
"No..."
"Why not‽"
"Because I quit..."
"B-But why? You love drag..." Alex cried.
"Not as much as I love taking care of myself."
"What are you going to do? A-And where are you gonna go?" Phil grabbed my face and dried my apparent wet eyes.
"That's none of your business..."

I slowly kissed his penny-sweet lips before moving over to Alex. I pouted and grabbed his hands. He gave me a frown before sighing.

"Can I get a kiss goodbye too?"
"I wouldn't leave you without one," I whispered.

He pulled me into a passionate kiss and I just knew that I'd miss my boys, but this was the right thing to do. I pulled away and ran my thumb over his wet cheek.

"I love you both very much..." I grabbed their hands and gave them a squeeze. "I really hope you guys have a good life..."